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. . . . . Come aboard the luxury yacht . . . . .
. . . . . . . . . . . . Dandeana . . . . . . . . . . . . .
. . . . . . . . . . As the ladies of . . . . . . . . . .
. Narleen Kristel's Music Studio & Productions .
. . . . . . . . . . proudly present . . . . . . . . . .

. . . . . . . . Starlight Serenade . . . . . . . .

. . . . . . . . . Friday, March 28, 2003 . . . . . . . . .
. . . . . . . . . . . 7:30 in the evening . . . . . . . . . . .
. . . . . . . . . . Fantasea Yacht Club . . . . . . . . . .
. . . . . . . . Marina del Rey, California . . . . . . . .


The event includes a full dinner, dancing and entertainment.
Music by: KIIS-FM and Introducing the ladies of "LINEAGE"
Dandeana departs at 7:30 pm and sails around the marina during this magical event!

: : : We will be raffling off: : : :
-Tickets to the Justin Timberlake/Christina Aguilera JUSTIFIED/STRIPPED TOUR!!!
-The 45th Annual Soul Train Awards 2003 Collectible Promo Programs
-Signed Promo Pictures of Gwen Stefani, Britney Spears, The Cast of Friends, J.Lo. and more!!!

Tickets are limited and are selling out!!!
For more information, call my cell!

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VERY GOOD and VERY SWELL

.. how did i get that title?...

k r s c o e 3: how is u and darren ?
tiCkLeXmEXLaUrA: good
tiCkLeXmEXLaUrA: how bout you and lauren?
k r s c o e 3: juss good ?
k r s c o e 3: ha
tiCkLeXmEXLaUrA: VERY GOOD
k r s c o e 3: we're swell
k r s c o e 3: ha
k r s c o e 3: kOo
tiCkLeXmEXLaUrA: just swell?
k r s c o e 3: VERY SWELL
k r s c o e 3: lol

haha..

WE GOT FIRST PLACE at the RCC COMPETITION...

wanna read about it... read on then.. haha

well anyway.. yesterday.. was the RCC competition.. so we all got ready during lunch. did a run through during 5th period.. then left at the end of 5th.. and we were on our way to riverside. played truth.. no dares, cause we couldn't.. and then the finger game.. haha. CAT LOST.. and we were being very loud... lucy was already losing her voice and she had a solo.. so we were gettin in trouble.. all cause of cat's LOUD laugh.. haha. but anyway.. that was fun.
oh yeah.. by the way girls.. remember what cat said.. *what is said in the circle.. stays in the circle..*.. hehe..

then we got there and ate cheetos and capri sun.. yuM! walked around.. they had a starbucks truck there!!! yum..
we went in and watched two choirs. oh my gosh.. CAT MADE ME LAUGH.. and it was the worst timing.. i hate those laughs!..
you know, the ones when you're not supposed to be laughing, so you try no to.. but the harder you try.. the more you laugh.. know what i mean?
ahhh.. it was so bad. were so bad. =/ i really DID try not to laugh though.. but their faces were like... ehhh.. think *bring it on* when they showed the bad auditions.. =/..
and then it was the clinic.. *wise men say, only fools rush in.. but i can't help falling in love with you..*
that black guy was good. haha.
then we went back to the bus to finish fixing our hair and puttin make up on..
then warmed up.. then we performed!...
then took our pictures.. and off we went to eat..
me, chris, cat, and lucy ate chinese food.. YUM!.. our fortune cookies predicted we would get first place!! [note: see quote of the day]
when we got back on the bus, i had a new voice message from *someone*.. but i couldn't understand it.. cause everyone was so loud haha..
then we got back to rcc.. and watched two more groups in the mixed division. the first group with the orange dresses had a TALL GIRL and the dance guy!!.. and the second group with the purple dresses.. had carlton!!.. haha

then was the rcc jazz group.. they sang a couple songs.. and my cousin-in-law was there! haha.. crystal timberlake.. hehe.. she had a solo too.. and it was cute. yay!
then awards time.. hi-five time! hehe
we got 3rd in the showmanship award.. 1st in the music award... and OVERALL.. WE GOT FIRST PLACE!!!!!! yeeeeeah! go wal-NUT! =)
then it was time to go home... =)
we tried to make new friends.. BUT NO.. someone didn't hear me.. haha..
i told christal to bump into this guy..but she said that i should.. so we turned around since we were both holding the box together.. and then i "accidentally" bumped into him.. and i say "sorry!".. but he didn't hear me.. and he kept walking.. and christal starts cracking up..
so then we think of more ways to get his attention... and we start screaming.. excuse me!... hey!... and he turns around and we say "how tall are you?" .. then he says "5'10".. and yeah.. that's all. haha... ok yeeeeah!..

quote of the day
*you have to put the fortune in your hand.. and the other hand has to be on the table.. did you put ALL of the cookie in your mouth at once?.. cause you have to!!* . . . the inseparable gfriends

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hMmmMmMmMmm . . .

aloha everyone!.. yeah.. so.. um.. no genzenn, that last post was not about darren. but yes, i know i can talk to you anytime.. and vice versa!.. hehe. bleh! genzenn's not on right now.. and i feel like talking to him. pooper scooper. =/
and no val, it wasn't about you either.. =) love you too though!!
actually i really don't know what it is.. but kkkeith understands!! hehe... right kkkeith?!.. haha..

well anyway.. the day after i wrote that.. i woke up in the morning and felt like a million percent better. *sigh*
the day after that too.. yippee.. and i slept over chris' house that night.. fun times. haha
sorry i fell asleep on you though inseparable gfriend.. haha. i should've drank your frap too!!!.. the kundi boys made me sleepy.. haha jp...:: P . E . R . F . E . C . T ::... hahahahahhah!! =)
oh yeah.. and.. aren't text messages so much fun to get?!.. ; ) ... who does this face though.. =0) hahah.. is it like that?

maaaan.. my throat started hurting last night.. i felt like i was gonna throw up.. cause my stomach hurt.. and my whole body hurt too.. and i had a headache.. goodness..
and i woke up this morning.. and felt so sick. =(.. and to make it even worse.. we had choir for two hours in the morning!..just rehearsing for our competition tomorrow..
felt like i was gonna faint.. seriously. my body was about to give out on me.. =/ .. never felt like that.. so yeah.. kinda scary.

well i should go now.. and put curlers in my hair.. we got competition tomorrow!!..

special person of the day
*mister keith samson*
why? because.. he knows. haha.. and he's my wise monkey!.. and therapy buddy. haha =)

song of the day : mariah carey - my saving grace

I've still got a lot to learn
But, at least I know where I can turn
When I'm in my times of need
Just as long
As I know all things are possible
Just as long as I believe

I've loved a lot, hurt a lot
Been burned a lot in my life and times
Spent precious years wrapped up in fear
With no end in sight
Until my saving grace shined on me
Until my saving grace set me free

Giving me peace
Giving me strength when I'd
Almost lost it all
Catching my every fall
I still exist because you keep me safe
I found my saving grace within you

Yes, I've been bruised
Grew up confused
Been destitute
I've seen life from many sides
Been stigmatized
Been black and white
Felt inferior inside
Until my saving grace shined on me
Until my saving grace set me free

Giving me peace
Giving me strength when I'd
Almost lost it all
Catching my every fall
I still exist because you keep me safe
I found my saving grace within you

And the bountiful things that you do
Lord thank you
For delivering me

And giving me peace
Giving me strength
Giving me hope when I'd
Almost lost it all
Catching my every fall
I still exist because you keep me safe
Always my saving grace
Pulls me through
I found my saving grace within you

Yes you are.. you're my every, everything
Within you...
Only, only you
Yes lord
Only you
My saving grace lord is
You

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please . . just let me . . vent.

i feel like sh*t. seriously. i don't know what's wrong with me.
i'm tired..
tired in that way... and also tired of the stress pressure worrying arguments dissapointments.. and all that stupid sh*T.. UGH!..
i mean i'm not a person that likes complicated crap.. and i don't know why i feel this way.
really, i've tried. tried to be patient. tried to not care. tried to be so f*cking nice and whatever..
it just seems that every time something good happens.. something bad just HAS to happen.

it's like everything is going by so fast. i don't have time to just b.r.e.a.t.h.e. .. a girl needs space sometimes ya know?!..
and everyone is just so busy with everything. but then.. i don't understand myself- because if i'm not busy.. then i'm thinking and then feeling like crap. erRRrRrRrrRRR!!!!!...

and i really don't want this drama or whatever.. i have no choice but to vent. and if you think i'm being dumb right now.. then just don't read this!.. as simple as that. so i'll continue...

sorry if i'm sounding like a biiiiatch right now. i know if i was reading this.. then i would probably be like wtf?!..
but.. i just..... don't know.

lord please help me. ='(

don't get me wrong..
i'm not saying i have the worst life or anything like that.

it feels like everything is just falling apart sometimes. and then, once i think everything is fine.. then it just seems to fall apart again.
even as i'm typing right now.. i'm getting all teary eyed.. sucks to be a girl sometimes and think so darn much!.. and a gemini.. so many freakin moood swwwwwwwwwwwings!..


i'm going to go have a conversation with god now... =)..

p.s. i still love ya'll..

hmm.. just one more thing.. this song just started playing right now.. so i wanted to post it..

song of the day : mariah carey - butterfly

When you love someone so deeply
They become your life
It's easy to succumb
To overwhelming fears inside
Blindly I imagined
I could keep you under glass
Now I understand to hold you
I must open up my hands
And watch you rise

Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly
Oh, fly abandonedly into the sun
If you should return to me
We truly were meant to be
So spread your wings and fly
Butterfly

I have learned that beauty
Has to flourish in the light
Wild horses run unbridled
Or their spirit dies
You have given me the courage
To be all that I can
And I truly feel your heart
Will lead you back to me
When you're ready to land

I can't pretend these tears
Aren't overflowing steadily
I can't prevent this hurt
From almost overtaking me
But I will stand and say goodbye
For you'll never be mine
Until you know the way it feels to fly

Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly
Oh, fly abandonedly into the sun
If you should return to me
We truly were meant to be
So spread your wings and fly
Butterfly

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HAPPY . BELATED . "PRETEND" . ANNIVERSARY . SILLY . SILLY . and . SILLY . BILLY ! ! ! ! ! !
HAPPY . BELATED . ANNIVERSARY . KRISTO . and . LAUREN ! ! ! ! ! !

me, darren, claire, q, cat, kris, ate nar, mayumi, ayako, and jocelyn went to the soul train awards yesterday. funfun!!.. =)

JUSTIN WAS THERE.. =) i swear that man is perfect. goood god.... *sigh*
[note: i still love you darren.. =).. hehe]

it was our "pretend anniversary" cause there's no 30 in february.. sad huh?!.. haha. well anyway.. we all were sitting together near the front.. but then we were sitting in some people's seats, so me, q, and claire had to move. but we only moved like 3 rows behind the rest of them. then later on, darren, kris, and cat got kicked out of their seats too.. haha. so me and darren weren't sitting next to each other during *dont change*.. but he sang it!! =).. and i comforted q... awWWWwWW... she was almost gonna make me cry. ='(..
but we saw ginuwine!!!.. ahh... b2k wasn't there though. pooper scoopers.. mariah was pretty, and then she looked mad.. but she saAaAAang..!
JUSTIN'S PERFORMANCE WAS SOooOOOooOOoO GOOD!.. and i'm not only saying that cause were married... i mean COME ON.. did you see that?!.. you HAVE to admit that was good =)

and i love india arie.. this is what she sang.. which made me think of *someone*.. until that "gap in his teeth" part... which then reminded me of cat and kris.. haha.

song of the day : india arie - the truth

Let me tell you why I love him..

Cause he is the truth
Said he is so real
And I love the way that he makes me feel
And if I am a reflection of him then I must be fly cause
His light it shines so bright I wouldn't lie

I remember the very first day I saw him
I found myself immediately intrigued by him
It's almost like I knew this man from another life
Like back then maybe I was his husband maybe he was my wife
And even the things I don't like about him are fine with me
Cause it's not hard for me to understand him cause he's so much like me
And it's truly my pleasure to share his company
And I know that it's God's gift to breathe
The air he breathes

Cause he's the truth
Said he is so real
And I love the way that he makes me feel
And if I am a reflection if him then I must be fly cause
His light it shines so bright I wouldn't lie

How can the same man that makes me so mad
Turn right around and kiss me so soft
If he ever left me I wouldn't even be sad no
Cause there's a blessing in every lesson
And I'm glad that I knew him at all

Cause he is the truth
Said he is so real
And I love the way that he makes me feel
And if I am a reflection of him then I must be fly cause
His light it shines so bright

I love the way he speaks
I love the way he thinks
I love the way that he treats his mama
I love that gap in between his teeth
I love him in every way that a woman can love a man
From personal to universal but most of all
It's unconditional

You know what I'm taking about
That's the way I feel
And I always will

There ain't no substitute for the truth
Either it is or isn't
Cause he is the truth
You see the truth it needs no proof
Either it is or it isn't
Cause he is the truth
Now you know the truth by the way it feels
And if I am a reflection of him then I must be fly
Cause he is yes he is
I wonder.. does he know?

after the show.. we saw bone thugs... or at least we think. haha. but it was only me, q , and claire.. standing like 2 feet away.
and i was reunited with my lover.. haha. you know one of the first things he said to me?!.. *babe, i love you... but.. DID YOU SEE AMERIE?!?!?!?*
can you say ewwWWwwWww?! i mean, she looked SEXY and everyTHANG.. but you don't have to say that to me! hahahaa...
but YEAH.. then we ate at frico's.. yum!.. *ladies and gentleman.. this is mambo # 5. . . *
then today.. i had my lesson.. and then practice.. funfunfun! hehe.. my phone was dyiiiing.. haha.. cause i didn't charge it for the past two days.. hehe. oops.
've been doin my retarded article critiques.. so i decided to take a break.. and i'm eating carrots and celery and ranch! yum! yum!.. hehe.. gulay, my momma should be so proud. haha..
yeah.. uh huh.. yep... ok ANYWAY..

oh yeah!.. look look...

d r u g s b a d5: i love u :-):-):-)
Bboy SpeciaL K: I Love You *smile*
k r s c o e 3: laura i loooooooooooove you!~
iTzmEdaRRen: I LOVEEE YOUUUUUUUUUUUU
iTzmEdaRRen: i loOooOooOove yOu!!
bEbE pNaY 909: i loOoOVe youuu!
NevaStopLuvinYoo: I LOVE YOUU:-)

hehe. . YEAH!.... goodnight my lovesSsSss...