a long time ago, i had this really good good good friend...one of my "best friends" you could say..let's call her natalie...
i NEVER fought with natalie, we always got along, and i thought it would always be like that.
i was wrong...
i was in a really tough situation, and i really needed her to be there for me...i needed her to support me and listen to what i had to say..
instead, it felt like she ignored me and my feelings..she just went on and listened to the other person, the other side of the situation, and she acted like nothing happened..she acted like i didn't have any feelings, like what i thought didn't even matter...i didn't want to realize that suddenly my feelings about what our friendship was had changed...i started seeing her in a totally different light, and i didn't like it..it felt like natalie was going behind my back by doing things that didn't help my situation, maybe i was selfish...i don't know, but still something didn't feel right...
whenever i talked to her, she would say things that made me think that she thought of me as so stupid..she would say things that made me mad, it made me want to tell her "gosh, is that what you think of me?"..."is that what you think that i do all day?..do you think i just spend all of this time to think about this problem?"...
it hurt a lot, because it felt like she looked down on me or something..i probably overreacted, and maybe she didn't feel like that...but it just felt that way to me...
anyway, after that, i didn't know what our relationship was or ever would be...

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we'll we're leaving soon....driving to las vegas, and flying from there to colorado i think...see you guys in a while....=)...bye!

=)..=)....=)..=)...=)......=)...=)....=)....are you happy?!....cuz i AM!...hehe..

so what's new...

whoa, patty's comin soon...

..and we're leaving tomorrow...aaaaaaah...get away from it all....
hey guys, don't miss me too much..hehe...jp..

oh yeah, i added lots of pictures to my site..go see...=)

and i think churro is "over" tomtom - the booty call man...errr?...

*it's late in the evening, she's wondering what clothes to wear...she puts on her makeup, and brushes her long brown hair...and then she asks me, "do i look alright?"...and i say yes, you look wonderful tonight.....we go to a party, and everyone turns to see..this beautiful lady, who's walking around with me...and then she asks me "do i feel alright?"....and i say yes...i feel wonderful tonight....*

*because i got high*

i was gonna clean my room..
until i got high
i was gonna get up and find the broom..
but then i got high
my room is still messed up
and i know why...
because i got high
because i got high
because i got high

i was gonna go to class
before i got high
i coulda cheated and i coulda passed
but i got high
i am taking it next semester
and i know why
because i got high
because i got high
because i got high
.....
i messed up my entire life..
because i got high
i lost my kids and wife..
because i got high
now i'm sleeping on the sidewalk
and i know why...
because i got high
because i got high
because i got high

i'm gonna stop singing this song..
because i'm high
i'm singing this whole thing wrong..
because i'm high
and if i dont sell one copy
i'll know why...
because i'm high
because i'm high
because i'm high
la da da da da da

..cheri's favorite song...haha...so puuuunny...=)...

yo CHEECH and CHONG!...hehe, CHONG, you're supposed to plan something!...cuz i'm leaving soon...i chink deees priiiii-day..ay nako!...=)..

go to my site..cuz i have more peeeec-tuuuuures...blehhhh

muuuuuuah....i luuub yuuuu....all ob you, you and you and you.....=)

well we went to the teen choice awards.....but then there was this looooooooong line..and then they were telling everyone that it was full...awwww....=(..but it's ok, cuz we thought we weren't gonna be able to get in anyway-serz hehe....

oh yeah..this lady came up to us after, and she said to claire "hi, i'm taking pictures of people at the teen choice awards to see what people are wearing"...or something like that..i guess she's with some magazine or something, i dunno that's all i can think of..and then she said "can i take your picture?"...and claire was like "uuuh, ok"...and i was like "*gasp*!!!..hehe, she's wearing my skirt!..she's wearing my skirt!..the one i was gonna wear!!"....hehe...and then after the lady took her picture, she said to me "can i take your picture too?"...and then i think it was cheri that was like.."SMILE!!!..SMILE!!"...hehe..

she's over him!!...whoooo hooo..good por yuuuu..hehe, no more =(....go churro..
drink him away...hehe, but you'll get tired of drinking fast!.."what, drinking fast?".."drinking quickly"..."oooh, i get it now"...

YAY!!!.....i have first period with christal!!..hehe, did i say that yet?..i don't think so...and i have 4th and 5th period with cathleen!..whooOOOo hOooooOo...but i dunno who else, cuz i didn't ask everyone yet...

weeeell...CHEECH and CHONG...let's do something this week ok?!...because i'm gonna leave at the end of this month i think...

i wanna see you out that door...baby...
bye!....bye!....bye!....

haha...