i'm feelin so goood....hehe, now i feel like posting that song too...haha...

ok, i know that i've been putting a lot of songs lately..but i can't help it...these songs are just saying "LAURA, PUT ME ON YOUR BLOG!!!"....hehe...so here's another song...
by mariah carey..

*Looking In*

You look at me and see the girl
Who lives inside the golden world
But don't believe
Thats all there is to see
You'll never know the real me

She smiles through a thousand tears
And harbors adolescent fears
She dreams of all
That she can never be

She wades in insecurity
And hides herself inside of me
Don't say she takes it all for granted
I'm well aware of all I have
Don't think that I am disenchanted
Please Understand

It seems as though I've always been
Somebody outside looking in
Well here I am for all of them to bleed
But they can't take my heart from me
And they can't bring me to my knees
They'll never know the real me



...wow..

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!!!!!!!!!....

OH MY gosh-ER-ness!!!!!!!!....

AY NAKO AY NAKO AY NAKO!!!!!....

cheri went on a "date" with one of her obsessed stalker people yesterday....and they went to this alicia keys thing...

and guess who she met!?!??!?!!??!?!.......AAAAAAAAAAH....SHE MET JESSE METCALFE!!!....and for those of you who don't know who he is....HE'S MY BOYFRIEND!!!.....hehe, he's on PASSIONS!!!!....

aaaaaaaah, she met him, and was talking to him...but then her stupid "date" made her leave...he said "let's walk around".....errrrr....what a party pooper-SCOOPER..hehe

well yeah, she asked him if he liked alicia keys, and he started singing "fallin" and dancing...aaaaaaah....what a HOTTIE....a SUPER HOTTIE.....hehe...ay nako....
and he asked her if she wanted to take a picture with him...and her "date" took a picture of them...how sad, cause when her "date" wanted to take a picture with him earlier, then cheri said "nonono"....but they still took a picture....cheri's such a MEAN-er....hehe...
well yeah, they were talking about lots of crap...but her stupid date person....

hehe, she came here..and came in our room, and woke us up....hehe, she was just toooooo excited...and when she was telling me, i couldn't scream...man, i totally lost my voice now, it keeps getting worse..

AND...TO MAKE ME EVEN MORE MAD AT HER...hehe, SHE TOUCHED HIM, MY OTHER BOYFRIEND...SHEMAR MOORE!!!!...cuz he was standing right next to her....aaaaaaaaaaah.....

oh man, what a freak-er...she should have taken us...ah well...=(....it's ok, he's already my boyfriend...hehe....

oh yeah oh yeah oh YEAH!!!.....

I HAVE to put justin and brian's song on here....
aaawwwwwwww.....=)...



*My Kind of Girl*

When I was younger never went to far
Held my feelings and never even wanted to start
So when i met you, i didnt know
What you were gonna do with my heart

When you talk
I cling on every word you say
When you move
Just like a breeze on a summer day
When you smile
The sky turns from gray to blue, thats what you do

And you're the kind of girl I think of
And you're the kind of girl I dream about
My heart is telling me that I need you in my world
Cause you're my kind of lady
You're my kind of girl

When I'm not with you, where ever you are
Baby I'm counting the moments till I'm back in your arms
All I want is to have you here with me
Every night and every day

When you talk
I cling on every word you say
When you move
Just like a breeze on a summer day
When you smile
The sky turns from gray to blue, thats what you do

And you're the kind of girl i think of
And you're the kind of girl i dream about
My heart is telling me that I need you in my world
Cause you're my kind of lady
You're my kind of girl

Baby girl I need you here by my side
And if your there everything will be alright
Cause this is the time for us, baby be mine

And you're the kind of girl I think of
And you're the kind of girl I dream about
My heart is telling me that I need you in my world
Cause you're my kind of lady...
You're my kind of girl

have you heard the new mariah carey song, "never too far"?....i saw the video earlier...that's a cute song...
oh yeah...
the other week, jagged edge said their next single is gonna be "goodbye"....yay...i already put that song as "flavor of the week" on my site a while ago, but i'll put it here again!....here ya go...


*Goodbye*

tell me have you ever been in a
situation where the best thing you could do
is the hardest thing you've ever done
but you try to do whats right
and i know that deep down inside
that i really wanna be there by your side
but i can't stand to see you cry
not when its because of me

and its over, i'll never love another
i'm always thinking of her, i'm doing this because of her

don't wanna say goodbye
i don't wanna let her see me cry
looking out the window and wondering why
did we have to say all those things
that we said last night
baby i don't wanna say goodbye
so i'm just standing here wondering why
just don't like to see when you cry
so I'ma say goodbye

if you think cause i packed your stuff
that inside i ain't really really cracking up
you're wrong i just hide it good
cause i know thats what you need
and there's more to life than loving yourself
you gotta learn to love somebody else
and thats why i do the things that i do

and its over, i'll never love another
i'm always thinking of her, I'm doing this because of her

don't wanna say goodbye
i don't wanna let her see me cry
looking out the window and wondering why
did we have to say all those things
that we said last night
baby i don't wanna say goodbye
so i'm just standing here wondering why
just don't like to see when you cry
so i'ma say goodbye....

HI...!!!!!!!!

my name is princess picky bitch drama queen....



i saw the sixth sense again on dvd today
*she wanted me to tell you the answer is "everyday".., what did you ask?*.....
*i asked, "do i make you proud??"*....

ok....i had this feeling when we were coming home....
i don't know...i thought i had everything figured out...
and then when we were driving to the airport...first we stopped at the Mother Cabrini shrine...
and there was this huge statue thing of jesus, and there was also this shape of a heart from rocks made by Mother Cabrini...
anyway, i just started thinking (the thing i do best..hehe ).....and the wind started blowing and hair flying everywhere (you know how that goes)....and yeah....after that i just felt better..and i had this feeling...it feels.....
....nice...

i think i'm not going to do my blog anymore....well i'm undecided, but i think i might just post messages, but not publish....so that means no one can read what i write...except for me...because i just write what i feel in here...i want to write about feelings, not just stuff like "today i went to..." .... because who really cares about what i did or whatever ya know?...i mean, it's nice to put stuff like that sometimes, but why not write something people can relate to...or something that people can understand, people know shit happens...but i think putting what i feel in here is maybe causing problems, or making people feel bad...

but i'm still not sure...i mean it's not like i want to write about diary-type stuff, you know, like *today i saw this guy...he's so hot, his name is....* it's just that when i need to say something, i just put it in here...ya know, it's just easier to type all the crap i have to say...
but if it's making ya'll sad or mad or anything negative, then i don't know if i should do this anymore...i mean, this is supposed to be a happy happy place...hehe...but ya know, life isn't always like that..
well....i'll see in a while if this'll be the last....

i'm HOOOOOOOOOOOME.....
too much flying and driving...

*at your best, you are love...you're a positive motivating force within my life..should you ever feel the need to wonder why, let me know...*
oh man aaliyah, it's crazy cuz she was in my head all of the time, i kept wanting to listen to her songs on my cd, and when we were flying, i said to my sister "why do i have a bad feeling"..i started praying cuz i really thought something bad was gonna happen...and i thought it was cause i kept seeing her diary thing on mtv..cause at the time i didn't know..


here's what's been on my mind...


one day i was just sitting and thinking
all of the problems i had started playing over and over again in my head.
my head hurt. my heart hurt. my whole body hurt.
that night i couldn't sleep.
all of a sudden as i just lay there, tears jsut started flowing..i don't know why, but they just came..
i kept thinking, "oh god, just take this pain away"...
..the next day, i got on the plane.
i kept trying to think of solutions. i wanted to push people away an jsut blame myself for everything that happened..of course i knew that wasn't going to work..
then it happened..
i just looked out the window...
i saw all the cars and the people getting smaller and smaller..
i thought of when i'm in a car, and how in one little car...i can be just one little person in there...in that one little car, on that one little street.....in this big world...
and then i thought again..."why are you wasting all your time thinking about all this crap?..whatever happened was supposed to happen, and the answers will come to you when it's supposed to, and everything will work out.."
and then the next day we were driving in the car...and as we got off of the freeway, we saw this man on the sidewalk and he was saying how he was hungry and stuff like that on this sign...
i thought AGAIN...."why am i being such a brat?...look at how lucky i am...look at everything i have...look at how MY problems are nothing to this man on the sidewalk who's going hungry and doesn't even have a home..."
and so then i thought, who cares about went or goes wrong...i mean isn't that life?...nothing and no one is always happy...and even if they are, it's cause they don't give a shit about anything, or because they don't want to realize there IS a problem...
i mean, i know that things happen to everyone sometimes...it's just that everything happened to go wrong all at the SAME TIME....
but instead of dwelling on it i decided...
to stop pretending you're happy when inside you're hurting...
don't put other people first
stop trying to change how you feel and you're mood to please everyone..
...or you'll only hurt yourself



*i sought out the Lord and he heard me, and delivered me from all my fears. the eyes of the Lord are on the righteous, and his ears are open to their cry. the face of the Lord is against those who do evil, to cut off the rememberance of them from the earth. the righteous cry out, and the Lord delivers them out of their troubles. the Lord is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves such as have a contrite spirit. the Lord redeems the soul of his servants, and none of those who trust in him shall be condemned.*
--psalm 34:4,15-18,20

*why are you cast down, O my soul? and why are you disquieted within me? hope in God, for i shall yet praise him for the help of his countenance.*
--psalm 42:5