hey guys! i can bend!
haha. . . it freaks me out to clean it. hey cat, call me cause i can pick us up if you take us. i tried calling you & iris yesterday but no one answered. so i hope you read this, if i don't talk to you later today...

and if any of ya'll aren't doing anything tonight call me k! piece haha =)

*hey i just remembered it's 02*02*02. . our winter formal!. . haha goooo katsopolis (hey chris, he's been looking cute.. and i HATE to admit that. darn.) . . . =) oh yeah go chrysanthy! and patrick. you guys are so cute together. yay

whoa. today was like dvd day. i watched three in a row with my mom and sis. glitter, head over heels, and get over it. of course we watched get over it... cause of you-know-who. AAAAAH. i love him.

i'm sorry guys. can't go. why don't you guys go to the dance tomorrow? but i don't know if you can. probably though. well i'm sorry.
and genzenn!! you called me! i felt all bad after...i still LOVE you! did you think i was mad at you? no way. and don't worry about my dad. he'll get over it. he's just bein a parent... ya know. over protective. naw, i think it's just cause he's just mad at me or whatever. ah well. as lexie would say... *it's all goood in the NEY-buuur-hooood!*

well yeah. again, i'm sorry i can't go. it's alright though. . cause you don't want me there anyway. i'm in pain. haha.

A SONG. . .

*Nowhere Fast*

Will I ever get to, to where it is that I am going
Will I ever follow through with what I... with what I have planned
I guess it's possible, that I have been a bit distracted
And the directions for me are a lot less in demand.
In demand.
Will I ever get to where I'm going
If I do will I know when I'm there
If the wind blew me in the right direction. Yeah
Would I even care
I would.


... isn't he cute too? brandon boyd. whooo.

guess what we did today?

me and cat got our belly buttons pierced.
lucy wanted it too, but her mom wouldn't let her.

k, so this is how it went. after school, we waited for claire outside the locker room. but OF COURSE she already left. so we were lookin everywhere for her. lucy said jr was gonna take her to the bank so that she could get money. so we went home with tony. first we took tony's brother's friend to pc. then we went to tony's house. then me cat claire and tony walked to lucy's since it's not far.
we walked to the place on valley. then we were in there for a while, cause i didn't wanna sign anything that said i'm 18. it was the only the old guy in there, with his walnut shirt. haha. then the girl came in. then i went outside to try calling people to come and sign for us. and the guy that works there was coming in. we smiled at each other, and he was like "hey" and i was like "hiiii"..=) thinkin dang he is CUTE. but i couldn't really think much about it, cause i was freaking out tryin to find someone. we were gonna ask these two guys next to us, cause they were gettin something pierced.. but then they didn't hear us. so we left and went inside the liquor store. i was gonna just use my cousin's license number. but she was all freaked out when i called her cause she thought she was gonna get in trouble cause she's not 18. we were only in there for a while. and the lady that worked there saw me talking on the phone and she yelled from the front, "ARE YOU GUYS GONNA BUY ANYTHING???" in this beee-yatch -y tone. so i bought a gatorade and lucy and cat bought something and we went outside. i remembered that lorean said that she could ask her sister to sign for us. so we called, but her sister wasn't home. this whole time lucy's mom kept calling her. so she asked her mom to sign for us. but she didn't want to, so we went back to lucy's house. but we asked amber's bro to take us. he's so COOL! he said to call him back in 30 mins, cause he had to go somewhere. so we went back to lucy's to learn the dance. then at like 5 something, amber's bro came with his cousin i think. they took us back there, and signed for us. THANKS!!!.. and then the lady told me to just wait for the dude to get set up. then i told lucy to come watch, cause claire and cat didn't want to.
then i went in. dang. i was all feeling weird. but i didn't think much about it. he told me to sit down in the chair and was just like "okay.. now i'm cleaning this.." blahblahblah. then he was like "do you have any questions??" i was like "uuuh, no" and lucy said "i have ONE question..... have you done this before???" she was just jokin of course... but he was like "um, yeeeah" so i just sat there. and then he cleaned my belly button. and he told me to roll up my shirt and stand up strait with my hands by my side. so i was just standing there while he stared at my stomach. haha. i was just looking at the wall cause i was all like "aaaah do i really wanna do this?" then lucy kept singing. it was that song. .something something "hotel california..." and he was like does that look straight to you? after he marked my belly button. he gave me the mirror and i said "uuum......uuuuh...what am i looking at???" haha. cause i couldn't see the dot. then he showed me and then he did the other dot.then he told me to lay down. aaah, i felt like i was at the doctors. and he explained to me what he was gonna do. he put the clamp. i stared at the wall thinkin "dang he's so cute..dang he's so cute..." and before i knew it, it was over. then he put the antibacterial stuff on it. whooo. i was done. i think his name is jeff, cause i saw on the board two names and how many piercings they did that day. now cat. i went out of the room, but i could still see her. i was lookin in the mirror and i was super freaked out. then it started bleeding. just a little. he said it was ok and he gave me a tissue to wipe it off. now they were playing "because i got high" and lucy was STILL singing. i was all quiet just staring at the ring. then lucy was like "COME ON LAURA!!!...sing sing!!". . and then i got all hyper and i started all dancing around. and i looked back in the room and mr. cute man was smiling. dang he's cute. then cat asked if her's was straight. i said yeah...and he pierced it. she was laying down, and she looked so scared. THEN...i felt all weird. i got so lightheaded. i said "ummm, guys, i don't feel too good." so mr. cute man told me to sit down. i seriously thought i was gonna faint. lucy kept singing and she was makin faces at me. i was sitting in the room and mr. cute man was there too. cat went out to look at herself and claire was out there too right by the door. well anyway, lucy kept making faces at me. and then i had this BIG headache. i was staring at lucy and then her face looked all black and white and fuzzy. and my ears felt like all numb. then we were talking and cat was like "dang laura you're all pale.." and i was getting all sweaty but my hands were cold. and mr. cute man asked me like 5 times "are you okay??? are you okay??" :do you want some water??" so i finally said "ok" and the old man brought me some water. then mr.cute man was telling us all "this is normal. you're ok.. it's just shock, since you got all hyper right after." so i drank the water. then i was feelin ok. they were all in color now. haha. "and now...there's color everywhere" now the song playing was. . that song..." she likes me for me"...haha haven't heard that in a while. well yeah...my ears still felt weird. so i was talking to them. and i said "am i talking loud??" and they said "no" and mr. cute man said "yeah, they feel weird huh??" and i said yeah. and then he asked like 5 more times "are you okay??" but this time he asked if i wanted juice. i said no, thanks. and he asked again "are you sure you don't want any juice or anything? we have juice" and i said... no i'll be fine. how cute. he was takin care of me. he could be a potential josh. hehe, but he doesn't have a sense of humor. maybe cause he wanted us to be all calm and relaxed. hmmmm. and he's old. it's ok. he's cute though. =) *sigh* lucy's mom came so i told him "thank you!!" and he said we should come back again another time and he'll change it for free. and my stomach was still bleeding a little bit. but we went out, and the air was cold. it felt goood. but all i could think or say was "CAT...he's so cute". . and of course. she agreed.

blahblahblah.... gotta go now. whooooo. sorry i couldn't go to the mall..seeya guys tomorrow, if kristo plans something!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KRISTO!!!!!.....AND JUSTIN!!!!!!

ok. just KIDDING! i posted.
cause man, i forgot to say. . . .

TOMORROW IS.....

KRISTO'S birthday! oh yeah, and justin's hehe. doesn't that make you feel special kristo!!?

ok well. i don't think i have anything else to say. . except that i'm letting keith have the thing from the book. a walk to remember, that i posted. the whole "Lord's plan" thing... or, i mean. that's dedicated to kkkeith!

*peace. . . and god bless*

just what i always wanted. i always wanted it to snow here. i always see snow. but not at home!

it's snowing!!!!

here. who would've guessed. in walnut. . . .

haha i tried calling everyone. and i just wanted to post this. =) cause it makes me happy. YAY were gonna go snowboardin again... i made my decision. i think. cause i HAVE to.

it's raining, it's pouring. . . .

my mommy is sick you guys, she's been in bed all day. =(. get better mom and chris-TAL-ner! pleeeeeease.=)
well happy birthday to my cousin, and happy graduation to my other cousin.

i'm probably not gonna write in here during this week... so i'll leave ya'll with a song.

*Running*

Run, running all the time
Running to the future
With you right by my side

Me, I'm the one you chose
Out of all the people
You wanted me the most

And I'm so sorry that I've fallen
Help me up, let's keep on running
Don't let me fall out of love

Running, running as fast as we can
Do you think well make it?
I really hope we make it
We're running keep holding my hand
So we don't get separated

Be, be the one i need
Be the one i trust most
Don't stop inspiring me

Sometimes it's hard to keep on running
We work so much to keep it going
Don't make me want to give up

Running, running as fast as we can
Do you think we'll make it?
I really hope we make it
We're running keep holding my hand
So we don't get separated

we were supposed to go to the bootylicious dance today, haha. for key club..but they postponed it to next sat.
darn our leaders! they don't tell us anything!
oh well, it was all good..cause we went to go watch a walk to remember =)
does someone wanna watch it with me again?
man i love him. i love shane west. and i love landon. man.

well we got in trouble again (dang, this weekend is NOT lovin me...) cat's mom got mad cause they waited for us for a long time in the parking lot. iris is here right now, waiting for her mom to come pick her up.
everyone was crying in the movie. hehe, we turned around and everyone was wiping away their tears. awww.
well while we were waiting before the movie... we sat outside. and iris was talkin on her cell. she was talking all funny. i thought she was talking to her sister. but then she started getting all. . i don't know. and i found out later she was talking to her LOVER. hehe, well not yet. hmmmm.
me and cat were stalking this guy. but we never got to talk to him. because we looked all stupid. there were three guys, but we wanted to talk to this one dude. we were following them. then pretended to be waiting for someone. then they followed us. and back and forth we went. how retarded. then iris was done talking to her love, and she went inside with claire. then one of the guys came and asked me what the time was. but it wasn't the cute guy. darn. well yeah, i was telling cathleen earlier that everyone yesterday looked cute. like everyone i saw. i don't know what's wrong with me, cause i don't know... hmmm. weird. i never think that many people are cute. oh yeah, cheri came back from vegas. wonder what happened. hmmmmm!!!!! haha cat's mom called her during the movie, and it was all loud, so cat was talking loud. and then all of a sudden the movie got quiet, but cat was still yelling. it was so funny.

someone watch it with me again. and i'm gonna count down till it comes out on dvd. cause i want it. now. hehe =)

well tomorrow. . or i mean, today were gonna go to my cousin's house to drop off my grandma. she's gonna stay there for a while. all the way over there. by six flags. so i get to see my little cousins again! yay. and after that were goin to glendale. man i still have to do my st. report. crap. and i'm supposed to be waking up in a couple of hours....

well i've been through so many ups and downs. but mostly, recently. i guess i'm still trying to learn to not get so caught up in the good times. . .cause then when it gets bad, it gets really really bad. but then again...
*In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: it goes on.* - Robert Frost