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on the verge of crying. . .

it doesn't matter what i say.

song of the day : pink - eventually

*shame on you if you fool me once... shame on me if you fool me twice.*

so what good am i to you.. if i can't be broken?
you'll get yours..
yeah, you'll get yours
e v e n t u a l l y.

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HAPPY . BELATED . BIRTHDAY . DRIZELLE ! ! ! ! ! !

HAPPY . BIRTHDAY . AUNTIE . BABY ! ! ! ! ! !
HAPPY . BIRTHDAY . JESSICA ! ! ! ! ! !
HAPPY . BIRTHDAY . ADRIAN ! ! ! ! ! !

..ok.. now that that's over with . . .

i've decided to make this a tradition now. remember when i did this last year? well here goes. . man, this is gonna take forever... ok the time now is 10:35 am.. ok.
..in alphabetical order, so don't think you're the special-EST cause you're first amber!! haha, jp!

amber: amber amber aaaaamber! haha.. we STILL need to go to your house.. haha thanks for being such a sweetie! =)
ashley: thanks for always being such a fun person to be around =) and for coming to our concert even though i didn't get to see you! *muah!*
ate nar: aka erik's baebygyrl! hehe.. thank you ate for everything.. love you ate! and erik loves you more!.. hehe
caitlin: miss diVa.. thanks for.. being scareDED of bugs hehehe.. you're so cute. [i know you wont read this.. but i had to put you anyway! hehe. that goes for other people too..]
carlyn: thanks for being such a cool person! haha.. and.. cookies.. or hashbrowns?
cat: miss cathy.. no i'm jp!! thank you for being you. awwWwWwwWW.. thanks for everything my partner in crime =)..
cesar: thanks for telling me to not procrastinate! hehe.. MEOW! do your hw! haha
cheri: cheri the churro, there's so much that i have to be thankful to you for. you know, i just realized you're like my big sis.. =) thank you for all the million billion trillion kajillion things there are.. *sigh*..that's a lot of stuff.. L3C whoo hooo!! =) =) =)
christal: thank you for all the memories.. *as we stroll along together. . * .. down memory lane. hehe.. "laura, i can't see!".. don't cry!.. hehe. but most importantly, thanks for being my inseparable gfriend.. once again?.. thanks for being my inseparable gfriend once again? thanks for being my inseparable gfriend.. one more time! thanks for being my inseparable gfriend.. haha.. and YOU can s.l.o.w . m.o . i.t.!
christine: wow, it's gonna be so much fun next year! hehe.. thanks for letting me know i can tell you anything.. and for telling ME eeeeverything! even if it hurts my ears! haha.. =)
chrysanthy: thank you for staying so sweet.. hehe =)
claire: the best little sister ever.. haha. well actually it's bigger twin.. no, take out the twin part! we don't look alike!.. haha me and cat look more alike! jp.. salamat miss claire for being just as weird as i am, if not more! =) oh, and also for coming up with the BEST names ever! hehe.. WHOA nelly...
colleen: miss miller.. hehe, no i'm not stealing dan from you. he's yours.. hehe but i still think he's the cutest out of them.. hehe =) thank you colleen for introducing us to your way of doing chaine turns.. and your little booty dance.. haha.
crystal: another collegewood buddy! hehe.. thank you. thank you. thank you. =)
cynthia: cynch.. aka michael.. hehe. hehe thanks cynch for being one of the nicest people i know.. and for being my brother! hehe. yes, this it tito.. haha. well yeah, cynch we need to do more stuff together! call me! now!! hehe..
darren: wow mister captain crunch... let me see.. thank you for visiting me.. and calling me.. and taking me home.. and falling asleep on me.. and not telling me anything [hehe jp].. and yeah. everything else =) gosh, you're so salty! hehe.. naks naman, huh genzenn?!
debbie: another one of the nicest people i know! seriously!!!.. well, i wanna thank you for that. =)
des: I LAAAAABBBBB YOOOUUUUUU!!.. hehe. who said that first? i don't know.. but anyway.. thanks for always wanting to come visit me even when i'm not home! =).. hehe, next time.. i'll be home! haha. well miss des, just wanna say i laaaab youuuu again! hehe
eda: eda i never see you anymore!!.. but thank you for being soooo cooool.. hehe =)
egmidio: thanks for eating the rest of my cookies when i don't want them.. hehe. jp..
ej: i never talk to you anymore and i really doubt you'll see this, but thanks for watching our talent show.. and letting us watch your bball game! haha.. i just remembered that zeke guy.. whoo hoo. jp.. oh and chris too. whatever happened to us visiting you at school!?! haha.
eugene: thanks for making me feel like my prayers work! hehe..
genzenn: my special person! hehe.. thanks for making me laugh! hehe.. and for being one of my number one fans.. =) thank you for supporting us! i really appreciate it.. =) naks naks naks naman.. tang ina. haha. [that looks weird, but it's not taounge or however you spelled it haha..]
gina: miss VA gina.. hehe. thanks for opening my locker and being in our 6th period class with rachel! hehe. oh yes, and being one the co-founder of bDANG! hehehe. =)
hideki: thanks for being my security guard hehe.. when are you gonna take ME somewhere?!.. huh?! huh?! huUUuUUUh?!?!!!?..=)
ina: inz, butterball!.. hehe thank you for all your calls and text messages! hehe.. =)
iris: thanks for making me laugh.. even if it's laughing AT you.. hehe jp. love you cookie!
janet: hot mommmmmmma.. haha. thanks for eeeeverything. =)
jeca: mini me!.. thank you. yep. hehehhee =) love you mini me.. and shane does too!
jennie: thank you too! hehe =)
jessa: thanks for being my 'lola'!!!.. hehe love you lola! =)
jessica m: remember our retarded jello cell thing?.. hehe. thanks for being so crazy!
jessica s: thanks for being so funny... and happy early birthday! =)
joanna: thank you tigerlily for also wanting to visit me with des! hehe.. and for coming to our concert! =)
jocelyn: thanks for all your text messages too! hehe.. and for walking into the store with curlers on with me and cat! haha.. =)
jon jon: sup mofo?!.. hehe.. thank you for supporting all of us.. and yes we like supporting you too! don't forget our choir concert is coming up.. hehe jp. well thanks for being so cool you mofo! love dirTAY cheeese! =)
joy: thanks for always telling me to go to your house! hehe.. we need to do that.. plan! =)
kayla: aka agnes.. salamat for being the bestEST collegewood buddy! hehe..
kevin: i never talk to you.. haha but thank you for taking me home that one day.. and for coming to the boat after our concert.. you should've watched it! hehe
kkkeith: my other number one fan! thanks for listening to me... and for being my shish kbob and fellow orlando lover! hehe.. where's my present?!.. jp.
kristi: thanks for being so sweet. i wish you could've come to the concert, but it's ok cause i'll see you soon! =)
kristo: my number two fan.. haha. thank you mister kristo for being you.. =) and for NOT singing on my voicemail! hehe, do it! now! hurry!.. hehe
lauren: thanks for playing pass it on and letting me pinch you! hehe..
lorean: macy multicolored~!!.. hehe thanks for being so dorky!
lucy: spread your wings! hehe.. salamat for always wanting to spread your wings with me! hahaha.. and for making me laugh.. sexie REXIE. =)
melissa: nebula! =) even though you ditched jc.. i still love you. thank you for being such a great person! =)
michelle: thank you for keeping me sane in class! haha.. what would our table be without you and prince?!.. hehe. =)
mildrey: thank you for being so crazy!.. haha
nick: wow, i've known you for a long time!.. come back to our table! haha.. we're miserable without you!!! hehe.. come baaaaaack!
nina: thank thank thank you.. for for for being so so so happy. hehe. [i just saw your profile]
pamela: dang, pamela i haven' t talked to you in the LONGEST time.. i KNOW for SURE you're not gonna see this.. but i hope i see you soon! at the choir concert! hehe.. thanks for being so nice when you were at walnut! hehe.. awww come back!
paul: i never talk to you anymore either! haha.. thanks for.. going to vegas the same weekend we did! haha..
patricia l : master peeee.. haha. thank you for being so funny when you freak out about everything !haha =)
patricia v: aka munch.. thank you trish for everything.. i really appreciate all that you've done.. and i still have to come over soon! hehe
q-anh: thanks for being so coOooOool! haha. =) your guestbook cut my message off but it's ok.. the last thing i said was.. 'don't forget that laura timberlake <3s you!' hehe..
rachel: my mommy!.. thanks for being my mommy and making me laugh and letting me use your locker and.. everything haha.. i don't know why i said that locker thing, it just popped in my head.
raymond: when are you gonna sing to me?.. haha.. oh yeah and don't forget the talent show! hehe. thanks for you know.. all the stufffffERness there is.
ronellyn: ay nako.. thanks for making me the secretary many many years ago!.. haha... love you miss lyn.
roxanne: thank you for being my cousin! hehe.. and for always listening to me.. and being there for me when you are not at work! hehe.. don't work anymore! hehe jp.. don't cry! and don't be scareDED!! hehe
roxy: thanks for being you.. and for everything. =)
tony: my second mommy! yes, i know you came first.. haha. DRUMS! =) thanks for letting us make fun of you all the time.. hehe but you know it's all out of love =).. stop trying to hold my hand!! hahaha.. tone dEF
valerie: val BAL valerina.. mrs. penick.. i mean mrs. martinez hehe, salamat for being you and making me laugh.. and doing our HOT dance.. and BODACIOUS!.. hehe.. the draaagon is scuuuuury! =) what? what? WHAT are you doing?!.. and no.. spongebob does not live in a pineapple under the TREE.. haha.
vanessa: put some clothes on! hehe jp.. thank you for ev-a-ree-thang! hehe *the four amigos. . . * hehe

-another thing. . i am very thankful that i have all of the super duper wonderful fantastic crazy MARVELOUS people in my life.. especially my family. =)

it's now 1:04 pm.. freakin writer's block! haha.. this took me 2 1/2 hours!.. well i also stopped a couple times hehe.. and i know i probably left some people out.. so if i did, i'm sorry but you are still very much loved. =) to everyone up there.. i love each and every one of you. please be good today! and *eat eat eat.. all day long. . eat eat eat while i sing this song..* hehe..

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HAPPY . BIRTHDAY . JESSA ! ! ! ! ! !

song of the day : otown - from the damage
.. which i dedicate to the birthday girl, miss jessa =) ashley angel <3s you! hehe

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blah. .

eRRrRrrrrRrRRR blogger!!.. it took FOREVER for me to get to post this thang. errr.. rooOOoOar!!!.. haha
so now i'm not in the mood to write. goshNESS. oh well.
but yeah.. =/

oh yeah... i had another interesting conversation with someone last night! hehe.. sssssshhhhhhhh. don't forget mister monkey man, that you're very special.. haha. and i'm not mean! haha salamat for listening to [or shall i say reading] my retarded thoughts. =)

quote of the day
*goodbye tony!.. tone def!.. the love of my life!! . . * anonymous
..haha.


bEbE pNaY 909: psshht
tiCkLeXmEXLaUrA: aloha
tiCkLeXmEXLaUrA: i swear i was just thinking about you right now.. and about you going online. then i looked at my buddy list. and you signed on.. oh my goodness
bEbE pNaY 909: hahahah

..weird?.. no. normal. cat, we really need to stop doing that kinda stuff. the other day, darren was copying my thoughts too.. sheeesh.

song of the day : alicia keys - why do i feel so sad?

people change. . and some will never learn.

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this is what happened. . .

ok.. we were talking.. and i remember looking at my phone and it was like 6 something.. and then i could see the sun coming up!.. the sky was bright! not dark!.. and then i'm like *oh no.. i need to sleep..* and then i'm like falling asleep. and then i'm awake and me and christal were both not talking. and then i start falling asleep. and then i go *christal.. christal acosta.. christal acosta bryant..* and i could hear her breathing. and then i said *aaaah.. christal??.. byebye christal*.. and i hung up. then i called back and the phone was busy. and i knew your cell didn't have any batteries... so i went to sleep. sorry chris. i thought you'd wake up from the dial tone, then hang up after me.. but i guess not. hmmm i wonder what happened...

but yeah.. our conversation was very interesting. don't you wish you heard it?.. yep, we know you do. haha.. jp. but yeah chris... wowSERZ.. what thinkers we are.

HEY kristo, darren, hideki, etc.. do your blogs. =) christal told me to tell you guys. yep.

today, i was so sleepy. of course, since i had no sleep. claire said my dad said he woke up at 5 and heard me talking on the phone.. haha. he just said.. *don't talk on the phone too late!*.. but that's not late! that's early! haha jp.

song of the day : nelly & kelly - dilemma
*no matter what i do . . all i think about is you.*
.. hehe christal.

the mossers came today! hehehe. kiana lost one of her front teeth. so cute!.. ryan was telling me this story that i could NOT understand.. haha, sometimes that boy talks crazy.. no frazy with an 'f'.. haha. malia was sucking her thumb and then started playing with my hair. ewww. and she laughs when you laugh, awww malia. =)

ok well my mind is wandering now.. so i'll just go now. hehe. oh yeah!.. we forgot to get our concert videos.. haha, silly us. but i have my lesson tomorrow~! so i can get mine tomorrow! hehehe. kkkeith, you're in it!.. haha. you just have to see. the rest of you are in it too.. but it's funny when it shows kkkeith. hehe.
ok byebye everyone!

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sometimes. . some people get me wrong. . .

song of the day : craig david - walking away

i just don't like feeling sad. i don't like seeing other people sad either. i wish there was no such thing as sad.. hurt.. lonely.. confused. . .
then again.. what would happy be without sad?.. you know what i mean?..


anyway... i woke up at like 9 this morning cause my aunt called me. today was my grandma and grandpa's anniversary. kiana, ryan, malia, and my aunt were supposed to come today.. but they ended up not. cheri and auntie emy did though. we had a lot of visitors today.. darren too. hahaha.. darren, remember what he said?.. that was funny.
at like 3:30 i went to albertsons. jon jon was my helper! hehe.. then went to ate's. then got everything ready for jessa's surprise birthday party. we blew up the balloons.. ewWWwWWWwWwW.. those fish balloons huh val?!.. haha. ate made a cake with pictures of ashley from otown and a picture of jessa and ashley.. hehe. and we were watchin ate's otown dvd thing. trevor and his neon green shorts.. val wanted those neon green shoelaces to match him.. haha. ooh i just remembered ate's story again. oOoOOoOoh.. i'm still so very very happy for her. =) =) =)
then we ate and ate and ate. hehe. then miss valerina had to go to watch *taming of the shrew*.. GO JON JON AND DEBBIE!.. hehe.
then we watched the encore concert video.. then we were off to downtown disney. we got ASHLEY ANGEL BARATA.. jessa's build-a-bear.. so cute! it has light blue eyes.. just like ashley!.. haha. then we ate again. yummy. then went back to ate's and watched *the others*.. i was falling asleep. it's ok cause i've already seen that movie. haha..
someone called ate's house while we were watching the movie.. and then they just hung up right away. so were were like ooookay. then they called again later and it was ina's dad. and cat's cell kept ringing too.. so many interruptions haha. then cat left. then SOMEONE called my cell. and i didn't hear anything. then they hung up. and i was like oooookay.. haha cause you woke me up kkkeith!!.. haha it's ok. then hideki called me after and told me it was them. that's nice. =)
after the movie ended, mel left. then i left.. jessa and jocelyn were still there.

oooh yeah.. at like 12 something in the morning the other day.. cat called me. dang cat, don't scare me like that!.. well i mean, don't shock me like that!.. gosh, i was so in shock.. and i prayed about that too!.. see my prayers really do work! =)

..hehe i read genzenn's blog. the things silly silly does for me. seriously genzenn. naAaAAaAaaAks... but HEY.. he doesn't have to do anything for me! haha

ok well.. i must go now. i was so sleepy earlier, but when i got home, i was all awake.. so i went online. i'm retarded.. yep. ok everyone, goodnight and sweet dreams of _______ !! =)