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Student Shoots Self In Front Of School

Victim Airlifted To Hospital

UPDATED: 7:56 p.m. PDT April 10, 2003

WALNUT, Calif. -- A student shot himself in front of Walnut High School cafeteria at about 12:10 p.m. Thursday.

*According to investigators, 18-year-old Brandon Flores took out a gun, and shot himself in the chest.
*He was transported to Queen of Valley Hospital in full arrest. The youth died at the hospital a short time later, according to authorities.
*Three witnesses said the act was an attempted suicide, according to school district official Brian Cole. The weapon has been recovered, Cole said.
*Some students say Flores was having problems with his girlfriend.
*"It is believed that Brandon was undergoing some personal problems, however, he was admired by his fellow students here at the school, a strong member of the soccer team, and well-known as a disc jockey," said Deputy Scott Butler of the L.A. County Sheriff's Dept.
*Counselors are on the campus and classes were not canceled.
*The school is located at 400 Pierre Rd.

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can you believe that?.. never would i have thought that would happen. especially at walnut. dang...
he was in our second period. =( we just saw him two hours earlier..
i remember seeing everyone run over to where it happened. me, cat, and cesar were just like "oh, another fight..."
we were even making fun of cesar and jon cause last time there was a fight, he ran to go see.
we were walking to the lunch lines to go buy food. but then lois and some other girls passed by us and told us someone got shot. so we ran over to see what happened. we were so close and we didn't hear anything. the glc's and security were pushing everyone back so we couldn't really see anything. then the glc's told everyone to go on the other side of the school.. we went to go sit down by the D building. all we could do was sit and think. really wanted to call darren but thought they might be going to class or something. cesar called his mom so him and his sister could go home. jon came and took care of us and told us where to go.. =) lucy and val came back from the bathroom and then we went to 5th. i was starting to get all teary-eyed when me and lucy said bye to val.. cause we all had the sad look on our faces. also because i didn't know what to think, what to feel. sad, mad, scared.. all of that running through my head.
looked at my phone and i had two missed calls from darren. called back but no answer.
got to choir and saw people crying so hard. cat wasn't there though.. and got me all worried. but then she came in with debbie. there were announcements and dr. gunn told us to call parents to let them know were okay. so we called our parents.. and as i was telling my mom, i started crying. then lucy called her mom and started crying too. we were just standing outside crying and we could hear the helicopters right above us. we went back inside and me, lucy, debbie, cat, and christal started praying together. there were more announcements and then it was time to go to 6th. it was soooo quiet during passing. got to 6th and ms. kim told us we had a choice of doing the work or just sitting there. me and cat decided to just do it.. cause we didn't feel like just sitting and thinking. kept looking at my phone just in case someone called.. and stared at the clock till school was over..
got out and talked to prince. then darren came.
went to his house.. then mcdonald's cause i didn't eat anything the whole day. i was hungry but didn't feel like eating.. but silly silly took care of me =)...
then went back to school for open house. changed into my dress but we ended up not singing cause everyone was still upset. the other choirs sang though, and we had to wait for them to finish. after, me and cat went to the candlelight vigil. there were flowers and stuffed animals there too. people also wrote sutff on the floor with chalk. prayed and payed our respects.. then went to our chem class.
did two labs and i almost set the room on fire. haha. noooo i didn't... but i'll save that story for another time.
ronellyn and claire came in and then we went to other classrooms.. in the german and french classrooms, they were giving away free pies and cakes and other desserts. they had so much... but i didn't feel like eating. so we dropped off ronellyn and went home.
called darren when i got home... then fell asleep.. again. hehe.. sorry =/ i woke up at 5:30 am and saw that i had 6 missed calls on my phone and a text message. cause i fell asleep and told him to call me back in 10 minutes.. but i obviously didn't wake up.. but yeah, wanted to call him back but i knew he'd be sleeping. so i just went back to sleep.
had a dream that i was watching the news and they were showing something about brandon...

all this just makes me realize even more that everything that i worry or get mad or stressed about.. just doesn't even matter.
it makes me sad to see that people can't even get over their dislikes for one another and come together.. especially in this time. but what can you do.
i keep thinking why? i don't understand how someone can just take their life away.. thinking about it scares me already. but i just wish that he could've had some other way of taking care of his problems.. everyone that reads this, please know that you always have somewhere to turn. and if you ever need anything.. a.n.y.t.h.i.n.g. .. i'm here.

R.I.P
BRANDON FLORES
1985 - 2003

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let go . . .

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hello again. haven't posted since sunday.. so lemme catch ya'll up with what i've been up to.

as of this very second i'm on my away message and it says...

i hate...

you

so much ..

right now.

.... yep. so please excuse my language for this post. but it's really time for a nice long vent.

monday
uMmmMMm... went to school.. nothing special cause i can't remember. after school, me and cat were supposed to go to fun club for community service, but we were TOO lazy cause of daylight savings time that messed up our sleeping!.. so darren came after school. we went to birch street... supposed to get coldstones.. but we were hungry so we ate at fatburger first. got my baby fat, chili cheese fries, and lemonade!.. YUM!.. then we were full so we decided to go to brea mall first and then come back for ice creeeam!!..
so we went to the mall and started on our present shopping. i got darren these brown boardshorts at hollister.. dang it took FOREVER in there.. retarded people don't know how to freeeeakin use the registers. but whatever... i was getting so impatient cause i had my lesson at 6:30 and it was already 6 something... i was so frustrated that i just started laughing at the stupid guy.. erRRRrRrRr!!!..
then we left and did not talk the whole way to ate's.. sorry bout that... =/
oh yeah.. and let me ADD we didn't get coldstones... pooper scooper.
well, got to ate's and val was still in her lesson. jessa was there in the waiting room too.. and i tried not to let her see that i was all bleH.. but yeah. so val comes out and i tell her.. "another argument again..." .. haha, that's what we say to each other all the time.. it's actually kinda funny huh val!.. haha it's our new tradition..
but anyway.. ate nar says "whAAAaaAAat?".. so then.... this happens..

me: yeah.. we argued
ate: when?
me: just right now
ate: what happened?
me: well the whole point of today was to go get coldstones.. and then...
ate: oooh! you're not supposed to be eating ice cream! that's bad for your voice!
me: but... but.. val eats it all the time! [hehe, jp roro.. i laaaab you!]
ate: VAL!!
val: no i DON'T!
me: mmmhMMmmM.. but anyway.. THAT didn't happen. then we went and got him boardshorts, and the guy took forever and i was getting mad cause i didn't wanna be late for my lesson..
ate: ooooh.. UH OH.. the honeymoon has ended.
me: yeah right. it ended a long time ago
val: oh yeah! we never even HAD one!!!

.. haha. so yeah. then i had my lesson and sang my sad song... and ate told me to learn this other song also. then i went home.. and called him later on and apologized for being stupid. ehhh!

tuesday
block day.. before third, as we were having our usual pre-dance conversations.. i told cat about what happened... haha, and we cleared some misunderstandings... hehehe.. NO, _______ doesn't _______ all the time!...
then had choir... me and cat decided that we didn't wanna go to fun club again cause were so f*cking lazy like that!.. and our excuse to ourselves is that we were gonna "do our costumes for dance production".. so after school, we went to her house. and did we end up "doing our costumes" ??.. yes, you're right... we DIDN'T. haha. i ended up doing my homework, falling asleep for five minutes.. and then t.h.i.n.k.i.n.g. ... yeah.. then we were on our way to pick up her mom, then they took me home. in the car.. heard some songs i haven't heard in a while.. some from concert.. *for all time*, *count on me*, and *nandito ako*.. and we sang it together.. awww memories...
got home.. and don't remember.. haha.
then darren came later on.. discussions again... but worked it out as always.. then he had to go home so he left.. and i think i fell asleep.

wednesday
today... right?!.. dang this week is going by pretty slow. but yeah... jon jon is cool... hehe just wanted to say that.. even though he never saw that i put him as special person of the day.. wanna see part of our conversation?

jon: did you ever put me as the special person of the day?
me: yeah!!.. you didn't see it? i thought you said "laura, i read your blog everyday"
jon: uuuh, yeeeah. i meant "everyday" that i go online! duh!
me: uh-DUHHHH!
jon: oh i saw you on the tv!
me: yeah, in the video production thing... oh yeah, i saw you!!
jon: where?
me: in my dreams.. oooOOOOoOhh... you like that huh?!

.. hMMmmmmM... oh yeah. let me add that i am TRAUMATIZED for life!.. we were playing that one game.. and LAUREN was shaking her booTAY EVERYWHERE.. AAAAAH! scuuuuurrrry. haha.
then after school, me, claire and darren went to get stuff for our dance costumes.. and OF COURSE i forgot something.. aaah bad me bad me. oh well.

so now that i've caught up.. venting time. now is when you excuse the language, i spoke too soon up there.. but yeah...

ok. so where do i begin? someone please knock some sense into this head of mine because i seriously don't know what's wrong with me. i kinda felt really stressed out around the time before the cruise. but i thought it was just all the stress and worrying about everything for that night and all. then the days after the cruise.. everything seemed to get better. but NOW, it's all coming back. i'm starting to think that there's something seriously wrong with me. i just don't know what it is. and here i am taking it out on darren sometimes. and i told him that he should know that he really doesn't need to take all my sh*t.. i mean, you know.. everything that i get stressed about is not his problem. or i mean, i shouldn't make it his problem, cause i know he's got stuff to take care of too. i'm not saying i want to break up with him.. i'm just saying that he doesn't need me. it's true.
i know i have so many people that care about me in my life.. but sometimes i just feel alone. but i don't get it, cause sometimes i just want to be alone.
a habit i have sometimes.. is thinking about others before my own feelings. maybe that's what hurting me now. maybe i just want to be selfish for a day and only think about my f*cking self.
maybe i'm wrong about everything. what the f*ck is wrong with me? i don't get it. i just don't wanna feel like this. i hate these mood swings.. it's like once second everything is fine, and the next it's not.
i have to say again.. babe, i'm really sorry for everything i've put you through lately. i really think some of the things that i said or did to you shouldn't have happened... regardless of whether you deserved it or not.

i remember something someone said a couple of months ago... *sometimes love just isn't enough*
at the time, i disagreed. i guess deep down i wanted to believe that love is all anyone really needs. but now, sometimes i start to think.. maybe there is some truth in that.
oh and, about my away message.. it's not towards anyone. just the song that popped in my head and the mood i'm in i guess.
aaah.. in the world today.. this is the last way i wanna feel right now. but.. i guess i'll just have to deal...

another thing. this was in cheri's xanga and i wanted to put it here...

*this time i gotta get this boy off my mind...i'm lovesick...it's cloudin up all my sunshine...i wish that i could just sit back & recline...but love makes me blind, it makes me blind*

kinda how i feel, but not the boy part...

everyone.. stay happy. see you when i see you.. love ya'll ... byebye.

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time to update . . .

ok.. uMmm.. left off on the second.. that was.. wednesday.. ay!.. ok let's start

on thursday.. we had a field trip! .. hehe we went to UCI.. for their 8th annual student outreach thang.. yep. we went there last year too. but ANYWAY..
uMMmmMmmM.. we left at like 8 from school. on the way there, cat kept falling asleep.. and i kept saying "no! no!.. don't fall asleep!".. hahha... and we were discussing some stuff.. and listening to jr singing behind us. hehe. then we got there and got our name tags.. NO!! we were all separated. pooper scooper. =/ i was in the lion group! so was isis!! yeeeah. and we had the coolest poster! haha.. well yeah, went through all the workshops and stuff. then it was LUNCH TIME! =) hehe.. we all ate outside and watched the entertainment.. oOOoooh!.. first it was these 3 girls and a guy that sang.. good good.. then four guys that sang.. good too.. =).. AND THEN.. this dance group performed.. they were GOOD! =).. but one of the girl's boobs popped out.. hahahah.. ew.. but they were really really good. jealous!!! haha.. i wanna dance with them! ooh that'd be fun! yeah!.. everyone liked one of the guys.. haha funny. and we took a picture with them!
then the laker girls took a picture together.. which is.. me, cat, chris, val, lucy, and rachel!.. hehe we were all wearing laker jerseys... yep!..
then we had one more workshop and then we were on our way home...
on the way home.. it was so much fun.. hahahahahhaha... "can i have your number phone?"
we played games and laughed so hard.. as usual. haha, i was almost about to pee in my pants cause of cat. haha.
then after, darren came and me, him, and claire went to toys r us to look for my hula hoop for dance.. it was $5 there.. so we went to walmart like i TOLD him we should have gone in the FIRSTPLACE... haha. and it was only 82 cents there!.. tooOOooOOold YA!.. jp.. then went home.

friday.. uMmm.. what did i do friday?.. oh yeah.. we had a weird schedule cause of the renaissance rally. went to that.. go halo-halo!! hehe.. then didn't have to go to fourth cause of the rally.. then went to choir but mrs. lopez wasn't there cause chamber had a festival. but yeah.. this week was SO EASY! =).. cause monday.. we went to the preview of king and i three times.. then tuesday and wednesday block went by fast.. didn't go to school thursday.. and friday had the weird schedule.. yeaaaaah.. =) hehe
then after school, darren, q, and hideki came! =).. stayed there for a bit.. then went to xpose so they could get their pictures.. and i got the group picture from sadies!.. then we went to jeannie's. after watching tv for a bit.. i got SUPER hungry.. hehe. so me and darren and hideki left.. first we took hideki home, then we went to mcdonalds.. and there was a huge mix up and they messed our order up.. and gave us free stuff.. but then, they figured it out and took it back. pooper scooper. then back to jeannie's and ate our filet o fishes and fries and mcflurries.. YUM!.. mine and katherine's comfort food is *mcflurries and apple pies*! =) hehe, remember that one day kat?!..
watched tv, and claire and kat made pancakes.. EW!.. don't eat kat's pancakes! they're thick and hard and white! hahaha.. then darren farted on me.. it was so nasty cause i felt it... ewWwWWw.. but i still love him.. haha.. i'm gonna get you back!!!!!!!...

saturday... woke up at like 6 something.. and took a shower.. then ate and went to iris'.. cat came and then we left to pick up kim. then we were off to south hills. took our SATs.. ahHHhhH!... hehe. saw a buncha walnutERS there.. then we left but cat stayed since she was getting picked up there. then we went to jack in the box.. got chicken sandwiches and seasoned curly fries.. YUMMMM! =) t.u.m.m.y. l.u.v.i.n. !!!!!! ... hehe. went back to her house and looked at old pictures.. then went home. then went to glendale for my cousin's 10th birthday. got there and saw baby brian again!! =) he's 3 months old now!.. hehe, born on new years eve.. a day after s.s. and s.b. day! yeeeah.. hehe, then ate more! my tito and tita from texas were there too..
then we watched *lilo and stitch* again.. and then i started on my research paper rough draft.. and listened to the *grease* soundtrack.. whoa! old choir songs! hehe..
then we ate yummy ice cream cake.. and renelle opened her presents.. she got a bunch roxy stuff!!!.. aaah! jealous!!.. and money!.. aaah! jealous again!
hehe..
after a while me, claire, and renelle fell asleep.. and left to go home at like 12. got home and called my voicemail to listen to my messages. then called darren. talked for like 10 seconds then i went to sleep.

today.. woke up at like 8 something.. I DON'T KNOW WHY.. but in reality it was 9 something.. darn daylight savings time...
called silly silly... woke him up.. oops. had a little.. thing.. =/ then everything was ok. ate and finished my research paper.. then called him back. aaAaAaAAaaAh! we didn't go to church today.. we were gonna go to mass at 5:30.. but the parentals fell asleep. too much partying yesterday.. hahaha.

p.s. sorry christal that i couldn't go and watch you.. i'm sure you kicked big fat boOtAY though!.. hehe.. i hope you taped it too...
dang.. something ALWAYS has to come up on youth rally day.. i'm sorry again chris!

special person of the day
*miss roxanne baluyot*
why? because i miss her and love her very much!.. where have you been roxxxxy?!..

ah.. gotta go.. and give my tummy more luvin.. =) byebye everyone!