chicken soup for the soul. . .

been reading it a bit too much. haha. but what else do you do when you have 3 of the books and lots of time on your hands?
anyway... read this..

*After a While*

After a while you learn the subtle difference
between holding a hand and chaining a soul,
And you learn that love doesn't mean leaning and company doesn't mean security,
And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts and presents aren't promises,
And you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes open, with the grace of an adult, not the grief of a child,
And you being to learn to build all your roads on today because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans.
After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much.
So plant your own garden and decorate your own soul, instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.
And you learn that you really can endure...
that you really are stong,
and you really do have worth.
And you learn and you learn and you learn...
with every goodbye you learn...

you will always be my boo. . .

dedicated to SS since he told me about this song.. and the meaning behind it.

*my boo*

There’s always that one person that will always have your heart
You never see it coming cause you’re blinded from the start
Know that you’re that one for me it’s clear for everyone to see
Ooh baby.. you will always be my boo

I don’t know about y’all but I know about us and
It’s the only way we know how to rock
I don’t know about y’all but I know about us and
It’s the only way we know how to rock

Do you remember girl, I was the one that gave you your first kiss
Cause I remember girl, I was the one who said put your lips like this
Even before all the fame and people screamin your name
Girl I was there and you were my baby

It started when we were younger you were my.. my boo
Now another brothers taken over but it’s still in your eyes.. my boo
Even though we used to argue it’s alright.. my boo
I know we haven’t seen each other in a while
But you will always be my boo

I was in love with you when we were younger you were my.. my boo
When I see you from time to time as if you’re like.. my boo
You can see it no matter how I try to hide.. my boo
And even though there’s another man who’s in my life
You will always be my boo

Yes I remember boy, cause after we kissed
I could only think about your lips
Yes I remember boy, the moment I knew
You were the one I could spend my life with
Even before all the fame and people screamin your name
I was there and you were my baby

It started when we were younger you were my.. my boo
Now another brothers taken over but it’s still in your eyes.. my boo
Even though we used to argue it’s alright.. my boo
I know we haven’t seen each other in a while
But you will always be my boo

I was in love with you when we were younger you were my.. my boo
When I see you from time to time as if you’re like.. my boo
You can see it no matter how I try to hide.. my boo
And even though there’s another man who’s in my life
You will always be my boo

My ooh my ooh my ooh my ooh my boo
My ooh my ooh my ooh my ooh my boo

It started when we were younger you were my.. my boo
Now another brothers taken over but it’s still in your eyes.. my boo
Even though we used to argue it’s alright.. my boo
I know we haven’t seen each other in a while
But you will always be my boo

I don’t know about y’all but I know about us and
It’s the only way we know how to rock
I don’t know about y’all but I know about us and
It’s the only way we know how to rock

*you will always be my boo..*

along came polly. . .

watchin it right now. funny. =)

anyway.... i must write this NOW.

summer checklist

1. Learn how to surf
2. Learn how to play the drums (even though i already taught myself!!!!)
3. Take dance again
4. Go on a road trip
5. Get a piercing/tat (either or both!)
6. Catch up on my sleep!
7. Get a job!!

etc.... any suggestions to add on my list?
tell me...
k byebye!

i have a bad memory . . .

so bear with me. but yeah... i just realized that i never posted about my debut!!

hmmm... so the day started with me waking up at like 5 in the morning. then i went back to sleep. woke up again at i don't know.. then took a shower and got dressed. got all my stuff together, then my mommy and daddy came. off we went to glendale! got my hurrrr did which by the way wasn 't what i had in mind.. but it worked. haha. i was annoyed by the lady though cause she was complaining about how she had to leave on her trip that day... ANYWAY. haha, so then after i got my makeup done by the sexy shim. hahahahah. then off to Luminarias. YAY! my photographer was there. he tooks pics and video of me getting my stuff together. then the boys came. then the girls came. we all changed. and trish helped me get my dress on. and i just remembered the bacon on the floor. haha. ANYWAY.. i keep getting sidetracked. FOCUS!! ummm.. then we took our court pictures with the preeeetty flowers. then with the preeeetty water. then video of me. then ate and jocelyn came!! then we practiced. then my tita and cousins came to set up the centerpieces and programs and giveaways. then we attempted the MJ dance in our dresses.. hahahahah.. *don't worry.. were not wearing this!!* i kept saying that to my cousin that had a WTF look on her face! then we attempted to practice the salsa in our dresses which did not work since my dress was so pooooFY. then it was time to HIDE!! we hid in our secret room that was freaaaakin hot as.. FIRE... (chris cole!! HEHE *on fire*.. there i go getting sidetracked again.... TAP DAT!)
so then we waited and situated ourselves and our clothes... then got ready and lined up for our grand entrance. ate dinner. haha... darren told rach that malia's name was heather!! sooo funny. after dinner... exited. lined up. father daughter dance.. hehe that was fun. then the waltz. BEAUTIFUL!!!!! =) to my lovely court: i'm very very proud of each one of you!! thanks guys!! =) hehe, everyone loved when the guys kissed the girls hands.. hehe awww. then it was the solo with my wonderful escort!! the little *tap tap tap* on my dad's shoulder hehehehe... =) then got to dance with my boys and finish the waltz. yay!
then we had technical difficulties! but *it's ok!* heheh. then i sang! yay! haha. then roses and candles! yay! then we changed. came out and darren's mom and aunt say hi and introduced me to two ladies.. darrens aunts? i forgot. ahh sorry. they were saying bye.. but i convinced them to stay and watch salsa and MJ!! yay!! so they stayed. =)
salsa was fun!!!! we matched!! hehhehe. we lifted!! yay! WHAT NOW?? hahahahahha jk. then did MJ!! YAY!!! SO MUCH FUN!! then took more pics with mi familia! then danced. still fun even though... haha. *it's ok!!* then joey came and gave me the justin dvd!!! yaaaaaay!!!!!!! =) and ate gave me a mrs. timberlake shirt and necklace!!! yaaaaaaay!!! then danced more.. and got all our stuff together. and said bye to everyone. THEN... we went to dennys!! hahahaha.. glennis! =) =) =)
then went to NEWPORT!!! BEAUTIFULLLLLL!!!!
then went back to ate's.. talked.. and knocked out.

then the next day.. got ready for joey's party.. but that's another story for another time. =)

so today.. goin to hip-hop!! hopefully. CAT WAKE UP! hmm.. i think i shall eat.. seeya laturrrr. BYE!

hey dude.. don't forget our inside jokes ok?? thank you for last night. and don't wait another week! i'm freeeee.. hehe. =)WEDNESDAY! and tell the girls i said hi!