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one day at a time. . .

Wednesday - May 7, 2003
today... went to second. it was fun.. just talked and stuff. then extended block. did city council stuff. stayed in there during the break since we had that class next anyway. me, cat and rachel did crunches during the break! heheheheh... fun =)
then i was laying on top of justin on the table. =)
hehhee.. i'm talking about the justin poster all you people!.. i know you were thinking *whAaAaaAAAaAaAt?!* just now. haha thanks valerina!
had fourth period. has a class meeting. fun stuff. haha. then lunch. went ot our key club meeting and turned in our hours. found out we still have till the end of the school year. then ate and talked and stuff... then went ot sixth. did a lab with cat, tony, and gina. we all had an INTERESTING CONVERSATION!.. hahaahah, and i don't mean THAT kind cat..
after school christal told us about her incident and we all shared our embarrasing moments. hehehhee.... =)
then darren came. talked about stuff and vented and found out something.. then went to puente to buy my mommy's mother's day present. met christal and lucy there. then we ate. yuMMmmMy tummy luvin. =) genzenn and hideki came. then me and darren took pictures in the photo booth and the one next to it. hahahahahahahhahah
then we got lost on the way to pick up lorean and cat form lorean's house. but we got there... then went to st. chris.. to practice!
practiced in the parking lot till everyone was ready. a.w.k.w.a.r.d. feeling... haven't seen colleen in forever. but it was ok. we danced in the back of jeca hehe. =) and jeca kicked big fat booTAY.. go jeca!
watched everyone else too.. then went back to ate's house. watched the end of *american idol* and cat was crying when josh brought his daughter on stage.. and she made me all teary-eyed! gosh cat! hahah..
then my dad came and i showed him what i got my mommy. cause i'm not gonna spend the whole day with her. why, you ask? most of my family is goin to vegas this weekend for my cousin's birthday... but they're leavin me behind cause of the performance on saturday. yep!...
cat came home with me.. and she did her journal and e-mailed her lover while i read some of the book to her. this was my away message.. hehehe

cat's here..

were busy...

gettin busy, that is....

hahahah i know you like that. =)

then ate pancit and ice cream.. then cat went home. and i started on this! yeP!.. hehe.. ok

conversation of the day
patricia: how come you guys are never at the table during lunch?
me: yeah we are, but sometimes we have meetings and stuff
cat: we go make-out and hide in the bushes
me: yep.. that's what we do. she grabs my booty
cat:and she grabs my boobies!
patricia: ewwwww!.. can i join?!

hahahahha!...

special person of the day
*miss christal acosta*
why? because she's my inseparable gFrieND! hehe, and cause she made me laugh today. and i really needed that. =) thanks chris!

i've been having some major mood swings... and it doesn't feel very nice. it's hard to laugh sometimes and that is NOT normal for me.
i seriously feel like there's something wrong with me sometimes.. and lately i've been feeling like i can't do anything right, cause no matter what i do.. someone ends up misinterpreting my actions and thoughts and feelings and EVERYTHING.
so much to do again.. but if i'm not doing anything then it's like ahhhh! you know what i mean?
if i'm not feeling lonely then i'm feeling like everything's too much. i was talking to darren about this earlier and it made me feel better. but now it's all just coming back. i really wish that i could just make everyone happy and everything would just be gooooood.
i've been reading the book eugene brought over.. and it's good and VERY true. but also causes more confusion in this head of mine. but as i was reading some of it to cat.. we stumbled apon this.. which i like..

*Finally, learn to use feeling of loneliness as an opportunity to draw closer to God. A girl in her midtwenties who recently married told me that she saw loneliness as God's call to her heart. "When I felt lonely, I would think, 'God is calling me back to Him,'" she told me. During these times she learned to pour out her heart to God and talk with Him. Now she wouldn't trade those intimate moments with God for the world.*

again.. i want to thank everyone that made my day a little brighter... but i remember christal the most cause i just read her blog hehe. but that was a good laugh.. =) my babe too.. yes, i know you're always there when i need to talk, and i know that there's nothing i can't tell you. you don't have to remind me.. haha. thank you though, for listening.. and for everything. =)
and cat!... no matter what it is.. you always know. exactly how i feel and what i'm trying to say. and what i told you earlier.. i know that you know how i am and that i'm not trying to tell you what to do about that situation.. but just know that i only want whats best for you bestfriend!!! hehe. thank you cat my dear. you special people.. i love you very much =) thank you guys..... *muaH*!
and thank you too.. to eugene cause he tried to make me feel better. but only ended up confusing me with the whole card thing. hahah thank you though! *it's the thought that counts!* haha

ahhh.. something else i wanted to say. but i forgot cause darren's distracting me.. oh belllllzzzz... haha. byebye everyone.. i love ya'llllll =) sweet dreams!

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fun club @ c.j. = fun times =)

aloHA!~.. ok ok.. i'm gonna update... been meaning to. but no time these days! haha... it's only been like... what, three days? hahaha... ok here i go..

Saturday - May 3, 2003
show choir competition in long beach. long story short... WE BEAT DIAMOND BAR! haha.. we got second place.. redlands got first which is really WEIRD.. cause they were kinda ehhhhh.... but whatever, those judges were being weird i guess. =/
called darren and genzenn on the way home.. genzenn wanted to watcha moive but i had to go to glendale.
so went home, then went to glendale to celebrate my cousin's birthday.. fun fun. they wanted me to sing but i fell asleep. haha. SO TIRED you don't even know... then went home and talked to darren till we both had to go.

Sunday - May 4, 2003
woke up. ate. and i don't remember sunday... hahahahha.. OH YEAH!.. i went to ate's cause my lesson was scheduled to be at 11:30. got there and she told me to have it at 1 so we could wait for val to come at 1:30. so i just did my homework and listened to jessa, jimmy, and ronellyn in their lessons. then i had my lesson and helped ate with some spring cleaning!.. val came at 2 something.. and we made up the dance. then my mini-me came with tita and we showed them. then i had to go home and go to church..
after church went home.. darren came to pick up his paper for summer school. and we ate kettle corn.. TUMMY LUVIN! =) it was soOOooooOooOOo funny.. we were trying to throw it in each other's mouths... wasted lots of popcorn.. but still FUN. =)
then he had to go home.. pOoooOOoper scooper. hehe. talked on the phone and went to sleep. YEP!

Monday - May 5, 2003
kuya jr's birthday!.. and cinco de mayo.. yeppppppERZ..
went to school. TIIIIIIIRED. then after school.. summer school and fall registration sign ups. our color was picked first.. yeeaaah! after that, darren took me and cat to cj morris for some community service. issssssues on the way.. but it was ehhhh ok. i went in and i think george [the guy in charge] could tell that i was kinda blah cause my eyes were kinda watering.. and he asked me if i wanted to take a break first. but i said that i was fine and went off to help the kids with their homework. bridget wanted to read to me... then i helped john with his sentences. =) then after everyone was done... we went to the lower field and played basketball and handball. played with kurt, john, and two other kids but i forgot their names... KURT IS CUTE TOO!!!... ohhhh you should have seen it... he was telling me to close my eyes and whisper *make me like mike*.. and do this thing with your feet.. soooOOOooOO CUTE!.. =) finished playing and went inside till the kids got picked up. me and cat played the disney trivia game with sidney and katie. hehehe... then darren and my other mother came.. heheh [cat's mom].. and they left and we left. ate mcdonald's and got boba. then talked about stuff. then went back to my house. and talked some more. isssssuessss... sorta. hmmm..
then eugene calls and tells me he's coming over. then he brings me sushi and a book!!! haha. darren had to go so he left.. eugene kept me company for a bit cause i needed to talk. THANKS YOUUUUU-GENE! hehehe. when he first came he said he had to go.. but then he said "ok.. i'll leave at 8.." then he said "ok.. i'll leave when we run out of things to talk about" hahaha. we didn't run out of things to talk about but he had to go deliver some sushi. hahaha. oh yeah.. me and eugene are *vision buddies* hahahahha...we are both seriously psychic or something.. haha we got that connection thing!.. but me and cat have it more.. sorry eugenieee weeenie..
we were talking about random stuff for like two hours.. then he left and i tried calling kris back but i forgot he's out to sea now!.. so now i have to wait. unless i just wanna type.. but i don't feel like it. wait kris wait!!!.. haha.
read a little bit of the book and i wanted to keep going on but my bed just felt so comfortable and i fell asleep. woke up to darren calling, then talked to him for a bit. then talked more. then i had a *bCtOr*.. hahahha.. gooood stuff. super stuff. HA!.. then talked more and went to sleep. HAHAHHAHA.. it was SO FUNNY.. i was so sleepy. i kept falling asleep and he would keep trying to wake me up and i was all cranky and being mean.. hehe i'm sorry baaaaaaabe =)

Tuesday - May 6, 2003
school again. community service again. this time it was me, cat, darren, austin, claire, isis, and nina... yep!
after school... cat, nina, and austin went together. and claire and isis went together. darren came and we ate cause i knew i'd be hungry. went to c.j. morris and played warball.. fun.. GO TEAM RJ!... hehe. me and cat were *awwwwwww*-ING when rj picked john to be on his team. hahaha.. nerds! WE <3 NERDS! hehehe.
gosh i SWEAR... i don't like someone. but oh well.. imma suck it in. well.. i take that back. it's not that i don't like that person.. but cat knows too.. and nina. ahhHHhhhHhhHh.. dang. ok. *breathe*
after that we went back and played and darren left. nina, cat, austin, and two girls played scrabble.. i played connect four with a girl but i forgot her name... ahhhh. then we played guess who.. then everyone started leaving. me, cat, and nina were spelling out our future kids' names with the scrabble letters. and cat put nina and alvin's names together.. then her's and kris'.. and mine and darren's. hahahaha. ME AND ATE NAR CLAIM NATHAN FOR OUR SONS!!!!!...........
then we left at 6 something. went back home to eat.. then val called and told us we had to go to citrus. so my dad took me and cat to citrus. talked to ate and chris and saw martin and yuta... our friends!!.. hahahah. *hi friends!.. bye friends!* =)
chris let us listen to their movie thing that ate was telling me about. cause last time, i only got to hear the part that ate did. so yeah.. that was funnnnny... heheheheh...
then ate said that there was really no point of us coming cause we didn't have anything new to show her.. hahaha.. so we looked inside the dance class.. then went home. cat might sleep over my house!... maybe my super powers are working now.. haha... i just thought of somethingggg... suppppppperrrrr powerssss..... haha. darren and cat....
got home and saw the end of clay's performance on *american idol*.. then took a shower. and started this THANG.

hmMmmMM... fun week so far. =)

oh yeah... and let me add.. that TODAY.. kristo asked me to prom! haha. he did..... =) and in his words, he was being all *slick* about it.. hehe.

conversation of the day

mrs lim-hays: ok everyone, put the snacks away. put away those tempting delicacies
me [whispering to michelle]: why does she look at him when she says "tempting delicacies?"
michelle: you know she likes that CHAAAAA-cuh-LATE!

special person of the day
*miss michelle fujimura*
why? cause she's the bestest with the smallest feet! haha =)

horoscope of the day
Just for today, you should try and ignore your habit of always trying to find an explanation for everything, dear Gemini. Something is changing inside you, and in the way you react to situations, and the desire to incorporate the more unpredictable aspects of life into your personality is the basis for these changes. A lot of your theories are only there to reassure you dear Gemini. But you probably already know that. Why don't you just try being honest with yourself?

gotta go.. i have a visitor. =) byebye.