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one day at a time. . .

Wednesday - May 7, 2003
today... went to second. it was fun.. just talked and stuff. then extended block. did city council stuff. stayed in there during the break since we had that class next anyway. me, cat and rachel did crunches during the break! heheheheh... fun =)
then i was laying on top of justin on the table. =)
hehhee.. i'm talking about the justin poster all you people!.. i know you were thinking *whAaAaaAAAaAaAt?!* just now. haha thanks valerina!
had fourth period. has a class meeting. fun stuff. haha. then lunch. went ot our key club meeting and turned in our hours. found out we still have till the end of the school year. then ate and talked and stuff... then went ot sixth. did a lab with cat, tony, and gina. we all had an INTERESTING CONVERSATION!.. hahaahah, and i don't mean THAT kind cat..
after school christal told us about her incident and we all shared our embarrasing moments. hehehhee.... =)
then darren came. talked about stuff and vented and found out something.. then went to puente to buy my mommy's mother's day present. met christal and lucy there. then we ate. yuMMmmMy tummy luvin. =) genzenn and hideki came. then me and darren took pictures in the photo booth and the one next to it. hahahahahahahhahah
then we got lost on the way to pick up lorean and cat form lorean's house. but we got there... then went to st. chris.. to practice!
practiced in the parking lot till everyone was ready. a.w.k.w.a.r.d. feeling... haven't seen colleen in forever. but it was ok. we danced in the back of jeca hehe. =) and jeca kicked big fat booTAY.. go jeca!
watched everyone else too.. then went back to ate's house. watched the end of *american idol* and cat was crying when josh brought his daughter on stage.. and she made me all teary-eyed! gosh cat! hahah..
then my dad came and i showed him what i got my mommy. cause i'm not gonna spend the whole day with her. why, you ask? most of my family is goin to vegas this weekend for my cousin's birthday... but they're leavin me behind cause of the performance on saturday. yep!...
cat came home with me.. and she did her journal and e-mailed her lover while i read some of the book to her. this was my away message.. hehehe

cat's here..

were busy...

gettin busy, that is....

hahahah i know you like that. =)

then ate pancit and ice cream.. then cat went home. and i started on this! yeP!.. hehe.. ok

conversation of the day
patricia: how come you guys are never at the table during lunch?
me: yeah we are, but sometimes we have meetings and stuff
cat: we go make-out and hide in the bushes
me: yep.. that's what we do. she grabs my booty
cat:and she grabs my boobies!
patricia: ewwwww!.. can i join?!

hahahahha!...

special person of the day
*miss christal acosta*
why? because she's my inseparable gFrieND! hehe, and cause she made me laugh today. and i really needed that. =) thanks chris!

i've been having some major mood swings... and it doesn't feel very nice. it's hard to laugh sometimes and that is NOT normal for me.
i seriously feel like there's something wrong with me sometimes.. and lately i've been feeling like i can't do anything right, cause no matter what i do.. someone ends up misinterpreting my actions and thoughts and feelings and EVERYTHING.
so much to do again.. but if i'm not doing anything then it's like ahhhh! you know what i mean?
if i'm not feeling lonely then i'm feeling like everything's too much. i was talking to darren about this earlier and it made me feel better. but now it's all just coming back. i really wish that i could just make everyone happy and everything would just be gooooood.
i've been reading the book eugene brought over.. and it's good and VERY true. but also causes more confusion in this head of mine. but as i was reading some of it to cat.. we stumbled apon this.. which i like..

*Finally, learn to use feeling of loneliness as an opportunity to draw closer to God. A girl in her midtwenties who recently married told me that she saw loneliness as God's call to her heart. "When I felt lonely, I would think, 'God is calling me back to Him,'" she told me. During these times she learned to pour out her heart to God and talk with Him. Now she wouldn't trade those intimate moments with God for the world.*

again.. i want to thank everyone that made my day a little brighter... but i remember christal the most cause i just read her blog hehe. but that was a good laugh.. =) my babe too.. yes, i know you're always there when i need to talk, and i know that there's nothing i can't tell you. you don't have to remind me.. haha. thank you though, for listening.. and for everything. =)
and cat!... no matter what it is.. you always know. exactly how i feel and what i'm trying to say. and what i told you earlier.. i know that you know how i am and that i'm not trying to tell you what to do about that situation.. but just know that i only want whats best for you bestfriend!!! hehe. thank you cat my dear. you special people.. i love you very much =) thank you guys..... *muaH*!
and thank you too.. to eugene cause he tried to make me feel better. but only ended up confusing me with the whole card thing. hahah thank you though! *it's the thought that counts!* haha

ahhh.. something else i wanted to say. but i forgot cause darren's distracting me.. oh belllllzzzz... haha. byebye everyone.. i love ya'llllll =) sweet dreams!