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candy, anyone?

yuMmaY!.. know what i ate yesterday?... twix, snickers, reeses, milky way, 3 musketeers, hersheys, starburst... etc. =) can you say *tummy luvin*?... =) =) =) oh and sprite! =) i haven't had boba and starbucks yet though.... but it's ok. *sigh*.. fatness here i come. . . =)

HAPPY . BELATED . EASTER ! ! ! ! ! !
HAPPY . BELATED . BIRTHDAY . ASHLEY ! ! ! ! ! !

hehe so i left off on saturday
hmMmmMM... did pretty much nothing but eat and sleep in the morning. and watch tv too.. hehe. then at like 2, we left to go buy our season passes for six flags. then we were on our way to citrus to meet everyone there. got there and rode with ate, claire, mayumi, and cat. in the other car was melissa, anthony, val, christal, and jon... and off we were to watch the taping for *rock me baby*.. remember cole from *MaRtiN*?.. yeah, he's on that show too..
the taping was fun.. can't really remember cause i'm really tired right now.. but yeah... =)
after the taping... we went to alberto's.. hehe ate said it'll be our new tradition to go there... hehe we got super nachos again!.. yumMMMmmMmMaY! then went home.

easter sunday.. woke up. took a shower. got ready to go to mass. my tito's church has mass at this one park every year... so yeah, had mass.. then after mass, we ate and did the usual stuff... saw my little cousins again.. but i shouldn't call them little anymore cause they're getting SO BIG! =). but chloe and shea weren't there.. don't know why. but they just came back from hawaii last week so maybe they're tired.. i don't know.
egg-hunting.. then more games.. ate more candy... =) they wanted me to sing, but i didn't have an instrumental with me so toooooo bad.. hehe jp.
then we left cause we ahd to go to a family reunion at my grandma's cousin's daughter's house.. yep =).. in downey.
met people that are somehow related to me.. then my aunt made me sing. i told her i didn't have an instrumental.. but she said, "then sing with the cd"... so they just made it really low and i had to sing for them.. their karaoke thing was broken and their mic was broken too.. so i was like.. "can i just hold the mic and pretend it's working?".. hehe.. but i didn't..
they have big houses over there!.. they're all one story, but they're big... and pretty.
i wanted to jump in the pool cause there was a slide.. hehe.
well anyway.. ate more.. and kiana and ryan and malia were there.. played with them.
my aunt wanted us to come home with them so we could take care of the kids.. but claire said.. "we can't, cause were going somewhere".. and my aunt goes "where?"... and claire said "ummm... somewhere!"
haha, she couldn't tell her six flags, cause that's where they live!.. hehe.
we would take care of them though.. but yeah.... it's ok. they can just stay with us! hehe. i wanna record there though... cause my uncle has a recording studio thing at their house there.. ehhh... i'm lazy. =)
anyWAY.. played.. ate.. talked.. christine forgot my tape AGAIN!.. mike knows about darren now.. haha, he kept asking me questions about him.. haha..
then we left and got home .. called darren.. went to sleep.

monday
today..
woke up.. watched *abandon* with claire..
[wow.. it's sunny.. hehe sorry, i just looked out the window]
then.. darren called.. talked for like two seconds.. now i'm HERE! =)
hehe.. have my lesson later on.. and i think that's about it for today.. heheehe.. fun huh?!

is it just me.. or does it feel like everything's changing.. i don't know, there's just so many up and downs i just don't know what "normal" is anymore! everything seems to be going wrong with one thing in my life, when something else is right. and when that starts to fall apart, then the other is ok.. am i making sense? i don't think so.. but aaaah.. i just don't want everything to fall apart.
don't you hate that feeling when you feel like you'd give so much to a person that doesn't wanna do the same for you? or have you ever even had that feeling? do you understand what i'm saying?
ok... WAIT. i'm stopping myself. all i need to know.. is that i'm living... i'm here. i'm supposed to be here. i'm feeling this way for a reason. and i will get through this. that's all i need to know. b.r.e.a.t.h.e. =)

song of the day : tlc - turntable

I used to walk around like
Nothing could happen to me
Life is a gamble so I
Should live life more carefully
But all I know is that I
Control my own destiny
I used to look at others
Instead of me blaming me


Don’t ask yourself why
Just look to the sky
Believe that soon you’ll see the other side


I know
That through all the struggle
There’s a bright road
At the end of the tunnel
Now you should know
Whatever your dilemma may be
You’ll learn
Life is worth it
Watch the tables turn


Yeah yeah yeah yeah


Whenever you feel troubled
With problems coming your way
Don’t ever get discouraged
There’s always a better day
We all don’t know the answers
Believe and trust when I say
That havin' faith is always
The way to make things okay


Don’t ask yourself why
Just look to the sky
Believe that soon you’ll see the other side


I know
That through all the struggle
There’s a bright road
At the end of the tunnel
Now you should know
Whatever your dilemma may be
You’ll learn
Life is worth it
Watch the tables turn


That’s right
Alright


You’ve had your ups and downs but
It happened for a reason
Cause after April showers
There will come a change of season
So please don’t give up now cuz
The sun's shinin' through the clouds
It’s gonna be alright
I know


I know
That through all the struggle
There’s a bright road
At the end of the tunnel
Now you should know
Whatever your dilemma may be
You’ll learn
Life is worth it
Watch the tables turn


I know
That through all the struggle
There’s a bright road
At the end of the tunnel
Now you should know
Whatever your dilemma may be
You’ll learn
Life is worth it
Watch the tables turn


ok guys.. have a fun break.. hopefully i see AAAAALL of you.. =) if not.. have fun and be safe! =)

special person of the day
*miss valerie albania*
why? cause she is very special.. hehe, and cause i am very proud of her.. =)
luv you val! roro! hehe