..........I'm not the average girl from your video
...................and I ain't built like a supermodel
...........................but, I learned to love myself unconditionally
................................because I am a queen

...................I'm not the average girl from your video
.........................my worth is not determined by the price of my clothes
................................no matter what I'm wearing I will always be India Arie. . .

*yesterday we said our last goodbyes, darling yesterday we gave it one last try. though we often said that we would never let it come to this.. i have nothing left to give. i can only sit and think of yesterday*. . .

forgot about that song too. =) whoa, reminds me of south pointe.

well EVERYONE. . they changed the date of the talent show. BUT you still have to go.. i'll tell ya'll when it is as soon as they tell us. alrighty!

went to cat's house after school today.. i don't think that was yellow shirt man! cause he looked kinda shorter and skinnier than i remember. but what do i know, that was more than 3 months ago. maybe he hasn't eaten anything cause he can't stop thinkin bout you cat. haha. but hey. . *i love you, i hope you love me too....* that's cute. maybe if i wasn't in a good mood, i would've thought "ewww, wtf??" but yea... oh and that guy does the CUTE thing. ya know, that thing them boys do to make us go gaaaaaa-gaaaaa. aaaaah

yesterday was my grandpa's birthday. man, sometimes i get so mad at myself cause you know? life goes on. and i hate thinking that my life is the same even without him here. cause it's not, but sometimes i have to take a deep breath and try to remember all my memories of him as i grew up. i found this old project i did in like 1st grade. we had to write about an anscestor, and i chose my grandpa. i wrote all about him and what he did as a kid, etc. i had pictures and all that. =) i still remember sometime when i was in elementary school... my grandma was away-- she went to the philippines. one morning i told my grandpa to do my hair. he put it in a ponytail, it was all lopsided and everything.=) and i remember asking him stories like how he and my grandma met. *aaah* but it feels so good to be able to think about stuff and smile... still get teary-eyed, but.. it's cause i love him so much.

i wanna watch peee-TA pan-DE-sal 2 haha. and crossroads chris!
my parents, and all my aunts and uncles from my dad's side of the family are leavin this weekend, to go to a birthday thing in santa rosa. well they're leaving in the morning so were at cheri's house right now. in churro's words . . "can this weekend get even more perfect??" i really do hope he goes, for you. yaaay.

hey hey hey! we can't forget about *40 days and 40 nights* i have to watch it! josh. whoo. oh man, i forgot about my other josh. <~~~~~ =) but i still love SHANE. do you think i can survive *no candy and *just water. NO not THAT water... i can only drink water... nothin but water. whooo. i wanted to do the only bread and water thing that chris said to do. GO CYNCH!! haha. i told my dad, he said it was up to me if i wanted to do it or not... but of course my mom freaked out and said i HAD to eat. so yah. CHOCOLATE doesn't count as candy!. . or else i've been bad. SORRY! i can't help it, people gave me a whole bunch of chocolate yesterday... looks like i'l be eatin conversation hearts in 40 days. darn.

alright guys... i'm out. time to go..... so long payatfish. =)

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!!!!!! . .

i made everyone cupcakes.. haha. now that i think of it.. cat was right. i'm the martha stewart of us, since i always bring cakes and stuff. haha, well it's only cause i want ya'll to get fatter than me =)

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY RACHEL!!!!!.....*muaaAaAAAAaAaAaah*!

nothing really happened at school. except for the fact that i was walking around partly BLIND!.. my contact ripped so i had to throw it away in third period. i was cryin a LOT during passing, and then i went in class and it wouldn't stay in my eye. and my teacher thought the cupcakes were for the class. ha.. yeeeah.

so the quote i've heard the most today??? it's a TIE.. between *i hate valentine's day!!!* and *i want a boyfriend!!!* haha =)

i've been listening to my old cd's. . . awww. memories.... yeah. here's a song i haven't listened to in a LONG time... =)

*You're A God*

I've gotta be honest
I think you know
We're covered in lies and that's okay
And there's somewhere beyond this, I know
But I hope I can find the words to say
Never again, no...
No, never again...

'Cause you're a god
And I am not
And I just thought
That you would know
You're a god
And I am not
And I just thought
I'd let you go

But I've been unable
To put you down
I'm still learning things I ought to know by now
It's under the table, so
I need something more to show, somehow

So, never again, no...
No, never again...

'Cause you're a god
And I am not
And I just thought
That you would know
You're a god
And I am not
And I just thought
I'd let you go

I've got to be honest
I think you know
We're covered in lies and that's okay
There's somewhere beyond this, I know
But I hope I can find the words to say


i forgot about that.... *sigh*.. time flies

*you got it, you got it. . . . * oh it's just not fair!


hey.. two movies come out tomorrow!!. . hehe, cat.. don't be sad if someone doesn't play bball. *how should i do my hair???* ay nako.

churro churro churro.... *i hope he goes*. . . 5 minutes later, *i hope he goes*.. *i hope he goes* ..*i hope he goes*

christal! you have to go!.. you were the planner! hehe..
des... we have a date!!!...when you gonna go? p.s. -- first you take my boyfriend. now you take my PARTY! that's just evil. =)
lucy - stop sending me texts!! haha jp.
trish - "do we have confirmation??.. oh, ok... bye!" hehe, jp. my long lost munch. we gotta go do something.
nina - *tomorrow* that's all i have to say. but i'm not getting my hopes up. just in case there's no good things for my eyes to look at. =)
k and k - we have to go do something, cause i have to give you guys somethin. . .
genzenn, cynch, jo, bonnie - let's go do SOMETHING
cecille - hey giiirlfriend... you: *you're my boyfriend* me: *no you're MY boyfriend* you: *finefine, we'll just be lesbians* . .cecille!! that's just nasty! hey, where's my peanut butter egg? i need it AFTER lent. =)
agnes & mayra - we have to wear our shirts on the same day like we planned, ok!!!
debbie!! - love the hair. that's all i gotta say... and WHOA. haha, but i'm used to it now. oh yeah! thanks for walkin me.. you're such a SWEETheart hehe.
amber - we have to go to your house and watch the video!. . and me and cat are gonna bring a thank-you present.. haha.
carlyn - hey HOT girl. you're so SEXY in your miniminimini skirt.... ooooh, watch OUT!
jan-NUT!!!! my hot moma!. . aka the girl that loves to eat and be heartbroken w/ me. =) isn't today just the best day EVER?!

ooh ooh, time to go. i can't think anymore anyway.

*shane*shane*shane*

OH YEAH.... EVERYONE come and watch us in the talent show!! we made it.. YEAH. haha. well it's wed, feb. 20!!!! @ 7pm i think. well yeah... come watch!!!

gotta go, but first. . *CALLAH* who won chris!?!?!?.....

just like i said... i dedicate this whole post to . . . *drumroll please*!

JON!!!!. . . I LOVE JON!!!!...

(but i'm not iiiin love with you.. haha)

now you better be nice to me again. cause you know you're bein all mean. jp, everyone, JON was NOT mean.. cause he's the nicest person in walnut world.. and yeah. he's SO COOL!!!! yep. so tomorrow... where's my hug yo?? =)

community service today. . .

that was so fun. those little kids were so cute. and i saw pam and her little sister, i didn't know she went to st. denis. hmmm. small world. haha jp.
well we were there for 4 hours... ahh. then we went to turn in our hours, and it was just me, claire, and roxy in the office. cause angie went to go make more copies of the forms. claire and roxy were lookin through the little peep-hole thing. then they got all scared cause they saw someone coming. so they jumped back. i thought it was just gonna be angie... but it was joe. =) haha, we were just talking about him.. cause his picture was there. anyway.. yeah.
well we went outside cause we had an hour to do nothing till mass. we were sitting, and there were these guys with like two girls. and roxy said they kept looking at us all funny, so we started walking around. then we went to the bathroom. when we went in church, those people we're still staring, ehh. then we went out and the guy with one eyebrow (or so roxy says) was still staring. ok. weird-os. then we sat down on the comfy seats. hehe. there was this boy that was throwing rocks! he was by the tree and he was throwing them straight up. we all said he must be bored waiting for his mom or something well like half-an-hour passed, and now he has throwing rocks across the floor. while this was happening, it was really windy, so the water in the fountain was blowing everywhere. now there were rocks everywhere, and i was getting all annoyed. roxy was trying to get the boy's attentiong yelling "HEY YOU!!... HEY BOY!!...HEEEEEEY! LITTLE BOY!!!!" and he didn't turn around, and i was getting REALLY annoyed now... so i got up and walked over to the boy. i was like "excuse me!.. can you PLEASE stop throwing those rocks?!? they're getting everywhere, and you know.. poeple are gonna come out here and trip on them!" and i was about to start cracking up cause he had this look on his face like oook... and he had his shirt folded up filled with rocks! i could not believe this boy... i just went back and told roxy and claire all about it. then the boy stands there for a while, then puts the rocks back. then he goes and picks up the rocks he threw. now i felt all bad, but it's ok. then roxy starts clapping all loud saying "GOOD JOB LITTLE BOY!!!" . . oh man, poor boy.

MAN i was just gonna say something. jon ruined my train of thought. aw man. oh well. cause jon said "wassup" and i didn't answer him cause i wasn't paying attention, cause i was doing my blog! then he goes
jon: u dun luv me nomo laura
me: haha
me: did i ever??
me: JP :-D
jon: OMG
jon: BYE
me: hehe

who says *omg* anyway? how gay is he... jp JON!!! aw man, it was just too easy.. jon's not talking to me anymore.. aw how sad. but i'm not lauging at you, i'm laughing WITH you! and remember... *i love her, but i'm not in looooove with her* haha. with your little motions.... whoo that's funny. =)

oh yeah! my grandma was telling me and my sister crap about cleaning. well she was saying stuff about how you shouldn't be all messy or whatever, and somehow it lead to divorce. OK. how weird. ook, i'm not even married, dang i'm in high school. hehe my grandma is so funny. oh yeah this one time she was telling me something about people in gangs and stuff. i don't remember what she said, but yeah.. i remember telling my cousin about it, haha. well ok, today she was talking a whole bunch.. and she was telling us another one of those stories of the philippines. and MAN now i feel so spoiled. i feel like such a punk cause there's SO much i take for granted. wow. she told us that she wants to write about her life. she said "it would be worthwhile to write about it... cause there's so much you can learn from what i've lived." but then she said she's "not well versed in english" blahblah... wow, i wish she would write all about everything she's been through. that would be NEAT-o to read. =) i love her, she's the COOL-est hehe.

haha cheri, remember when my dad and your mom both told us the same story about the boats. ooh, that's funny. =) puts a smile on my face and reminds me of when you were cutting that styrofoam thing in half. =)

ok time to go. my dad just called my cell. it was SUPER quiet, then all of a sudden my phone started vibrating and ringing. aaaah, i'm gonna have a heart attack. hehe.

*nothing's gonna change my world. . . *

what song should we sing for the talent show?. . . .

haha next year chris, don't forget... we are gonna sing-dance-play piano-do magic tricks-play guitar/drums-AND gymnastics crap ALL in under 3 minutes. YEAH. but not too many people. .haha.

well me and cat wanted to audition with "weak" again.. cause we couldn't think of anything right then and there. but they said we could try-out on tuesday... so what song should we sing??? if anyone thinks of anything... call me. SOON cause i have to get the song and all that, ya know. ok well tell me somehow. we have community service @ church tomorrow. i need to go to sleep. *pEaCe*