ok....i had this feeling when we were coming home....
i don't know...i thought i had everything figured out...
and then when we were driving to the airport...first we stopped at the Mother Cabrini shrine...
and there was this huge statue thing of jesus, and there was also this shape of a heart from rocks made by Mother Cabrini...
anyway, i just started thinking (the thing i do best..hehe ).....and the wind started blowing and hair flying everywhere (you know how that goes)....and yeah....after that i just felt better..and i had this feeling...it feels.....
....nice...

i think i'm not going to do my blog anymore....well i'm undecided, but i think i might just post messages, but not publish....so that means no one can read what i write...except for me...because i just write what i feel in here...i want to write about feelings, not just stuff like "today i went to..." .... because who really cares about what i did or whatever ya know?...i mean, it's nice to put stuff like that sometimes, but why not write something people can relate to...or something that people can understand, people know shit happens...but i think putting what i feel in here is maybe causing problems, or making people feel bad...

but i'm still not sure...i mean it's not like i want to write about diary-type stuff, you know, like *today i saw this guy...he's so hot, his name is....* it's just that when i need to say something, i just put it in here...ya know, it's just easier to type all the crap i have to say...
but if it's making ya'll sad or mad or anything negative, then i don't know if i should do this anymore...i mean, this is supposed to be a happy happy place...hehe...but ya know, life isn't always like that..
well....i'll see in a while if this'll be the last....