a long time ago, i had this really good good good friend...one of my "best friends" you could say..let's call her natalie...
i NEVER fought with natalie, we always got along, and i thought it would always be like that.
i was wrong...
i was in a really tough situation, and i really needed her to be there for me...i needed her to support me and listen to what i had to say..
instead, it felt like she ignored me and my feelings..she just went on and listened to the other person, the other side of the situation, and she acted like nothing happened..she acted like i didn't have any feelings, like what i thought didn't even matter...i didn't want to realize that suddenly my feelings about what our friendship was had changed...i started seeing her in a totally different light, and i didn't like it..it felt like natalie was going behind my back by doing things that didn't help my situation, maybe i was selfish...i don't know, but still something didn't feel right...
whenever i talked to her, she would say things that made me think that she thought of me as so stupid..she would say things that made me mad, it made me want to tell her "gosh, is that what you think of me?"..."is that what you think that i do all day?..do you think i just spend all of this time to think about this problem?"...
it hurt a lot, because it felt like she looked down on me or something..i probably overreacted, and maybe she didn't feel like that...but it just felt that way to me...
anyway, after that, i didn't know what our relationship was or ever would be...

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we'll we're leaving soon....driving to las vegas, and flying from there to colorado i think...see you guys in a while....=)...bye!