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please . . just let me . . vent.

i feel like sh*t. seriously. i don't know what's wrong with me.
i'm tired..
tired in that way... and also tired of the stress pressure worrying arguments dissapointments.. and all that stupid sh*T.. UGH!..
i mean i'm not a person that likes complicated crap.. and i don't know why i feel this way.
really, i've tried. tried to be patient. tried to not care. tried to be so f*cking nice and whatever..
it just seems that every time something good happens.. something bad just HAS to happen.

it's like everything is going by so fast. i don't have time to just b.r.e.a.t.h.e. .. a girl needs space sometimes ya know?!..
and everyone is just so busy with everything. but then.. i don't understand myself- because if i'm not busy.. then i'm thinking and then feeling like crap. erRRrRrRrrRRR!!!!!...

and i really don't want this drama or whatever.. i have no choice but to vent. and if you think i'm being dumb right now.. then just don't read this!.. as simple as that. so i'll continue...

sorry if i'm sounding like a biiiiatch right now. i know if i was reading this.. then i would probably be like wtf?!..
but.. i just..... don't know.

lord please help me. ='(

don't get me wrong..
i'm not saying i have the worst life or anything like that.

it feels like everything is just falling apart sometimes. and then, once i think everything is fine.. then it just seems to fall apart again.
even as i'm typing right now.. i'm getting all teary eyed.. sucks to be a girl sometimes and think so darn much!.. and a gemini.. so many freakin moood swwwwwwwwwwwings!..


i'm going to go have a conversation with god now... =)..

p.s. i still love ya'll..

hmm.. just one more thing.. this song just started playing right now.. so i wanted to post it..

song of the day : mariah carey - butterfly

When you love someone so deeply
They become your life
It's easy to succumb
To overwhelming fears inside
Blindly I imagined
I could keep you under glass
Now I understand to hold you
I must open up my hands
And watch you rise

Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly
Oh, fly abandonedly into the sun
If you should return to me
We truly were meant to be
So spread your wings and fly
Butterfly

I have learned that beauty
Has to flourish in the light
Wild horses run unbridled
Or their spirit dies
You have given me the courage
To be all that I can
And I truly feel your heart
Will lead you back to me
When you're ready to land

I can't pretend these tears
Aren't overflowing steadily
I can't prevent this hurt
From almost overtaking me
But I will stand and say goodbye
For you'll never be mine
Until you know the way it feels to fly

Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly
Oh, fly abandonedly into the sun
If you should return to me
We truly were meant to be
So spread your wings and fly
Butterfly