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took this from "someone's" blog.. hehe hope you don't mind CHAIR! hehe

dang! why did i get so dramatic over him? i'm only 20!

i'm still working on what i want to be...i have to concentrate on school & my career ahead of boys boys boys

i never put pressure on him...so i dunno why he gets so cold & talks to me like he doesn't care about me...it's like he can't handle me being a friend...it feels just like when he stopped talking to me in august...it's back to "i guess he lost interest in me & moved on to another girl & wants me to back off"

oh boo hoo...i always supported him...i feel like his cheerleader or something...someone who he talks to so he can feel better about himself

gosh...i just dunno...sometimes it feels like he takes me for granted...i give so much & i'm always available to him...BUT!!!!...i dunno...it just gets confusing

it's weird...i hate & i like the fact that he knows so much about me
i hate & i like the fact that i know so much about him
but i totally hate that i had to learn so much from him...and he probably doesn't even know it...but that doesn't matter
i just hate now that i know how to handle guys like him i can't do anything about it
i just meet guys...could probably hook up w/ them if i gave them a chance...but i'm not interested cuz i don't think they can compare to him

but oh well...i'll probably grow apart from him & become a person who won't be his type at all...i'll still be the same on the inside but i'll be in a different place, time, and role in my life. and i'll have to be broken down in order to get to know again.

by then i would've forgotten about this drama...and i'll be able to laugh about this whole ordeal